Originally Posted by filiadeluna
We had a tornado come through town yesterday! It's not all that unusual for this area to have warnings, but they usually touchdown in nearby towns. There was a touchdown in this town just a couple of weeks ago, but it didn't cause nearly as much damage. Anywho, I am normally morbidly fascinated with tornadoes, and I used to be one of the people who would try to take photos & video, and get really excited about the whole ordeal. Now that I am a mother, it's totally different.
Yeah, I still find tornadoes fascinating, but yesterday I was sooo scared for my baby, my mom, and my husband! My mom and I were in our local Target on the same road where the tornado first touched down - about 1/2 a mile from it! We had just finished shopping, and were about to leave when the employees told everyone to get to the back of the store. I panicked when I saw everyone RUNNING from the food court area to the back of the store. My mom was in the bathroom, and I was holding the baby. I yelled into the bathroom, "Mom, hurry up! We have to go to the back!"
So we spent about an hour in the Men's department, and Isobel was hungry, so I breastfed her while sitting on the floor back there. We heard the winds and hail... it was SOOO loud. They played a local radio station over the loud speaker, and we heard people calling in talking about what roads they spotted the tornado on. They mentioned the road we were on, as well as a road near my house. You could see the fear in everyone's eyes. My poor baby had no idea of what was going on, but I was so scared for her & my mom, and also worried about my husband who was still at home. The phone lines were all tied up, so we couldn't get through to one another for a couple of hours. I finally found out he was OK, and he had left the house for work that afternoon. Our house is also fine, but some houses down the road from us are not.
The thing that really freaks me out and makes me sad is that two people died. The worst part is it was a young mother about my age (mid-twenties) and her 9-week-old daughter.
That just hits too close to home. Many people were injured, and apparently over 100 houses damaged or destroyed. I think this is the most devastating tornado my actual town has had... or at least since I've lived here.
Anyway... sorry for the long post, but that was my day yesterday, and I felt it relevant since my daughter was with me. So scary!
my stomach dropped when i read this. so glad that you guys are ok, but heartbroken for the mama and baby that didn't make it. my baby is 8 weeks old today, almost the same age. i can't even think about it.
Originally Posted by Conchobhar
Oh my gosh, I'm so glad that you and your baby are OK. That sounds so scary and I got a lump in my throat when you said who had died. We aren't immortal anymore, are we? I've never been afraid of death until I had my baby.
i totally identify with this statement. i would do anything to protect my daughter. anything.
Originally Posted by justbishop
Oh geez! Glad you and yours are ok, but sad for those that aren't
We're doing well, I guess. Just trying to adjust to being a mommy!
Things haven't really gone as planned for Claudia and I as far as the breastfeeding goes. First it was my milk not really coming in (8 days post partum, I was still only able to pump about 10 ml between both breasts) and Claudia screaming and pushing away when we tried latching. Fenugreek seemed to help a bit with the supply, and we finally started getting the hang of latching, but she just wasn't interested in the work involved to get the milk I had for her. My lc did a weigh/feed/weigh for me, and after 20 minutes she'd only moved about 1/2 oz, and was obviously only rarely swallowing. The pumping was making me crazy and I hate to say it, but we've given up and moved exclusively to formula. I figure it's better for her to have formula and a non-suicidal mommy that be breastfed and me be a crying, depressed mess. Also, I think she has a dairy issue. When we stopped breastfeeding and started on a soy formula, the painful gas episodes went way down. Even if breastfeeding had been going ok, I don't think I could have given up dairy...after the food issues I had with HG, I just couldn't have put myself through any more.
On a happier note, we're doing great with our CDs! I've even figured out PFs with a Snappi
It's funny how the thing that everyone we know said would be the biggest PITA is turning out to be the part of new parenthood that is giving us the least hassle, lol. We're still using sposies for over night and outings, but 3 per day isn't too shabby compared to the alternative!
don't feel bad about bf - we had the same thing happen. dd is mostly ff, but we did salvage a little bit of our bf relationship, and i will continue to nurse her for as long as she likes. i did the weigh/feed/weigh thing too, and after 40 minutes total, both sides, she got maybe an ounce
. i agonized over this too...she would cry at the breast, starving, and i would cry with her. in the end we have a much happier mama and baby. the one thing i have learned about parenting thus far is to just do whatever works. so many of my ideals have flown out the window. i realize that i just have to let them go and do what i can.
eden is 8 weeks old today
we're doing so wonderfully. she's almost doubled her birth weight and is developing such a sweet disposition. she's so beautiful, and i am so in love with her, and totally into being a mama...i wasn't completely convinced, with everything that's happened, and had major concerns about ppd, but we seem to be ok, and hopefully this trend continues. mama gets plenty of sleep, and i have this amazingly alert little girl who laughs at me, makes faces at me and has begun to mimic when i speak to her
we're still doing sposies but hopefully, if i can find the time to prep my pf's, we'll start cloth this week. i will probably continue doing both - sposies at night and for out and about, but every little bit helps, right?
we co-sleep, and i usually bring her into bed in the middle of the night. last night, i laid her down on her back and when i woke, she was on her belly. my favorite thing in the world is waking up next to her in the morning - we just lay there and stare at each other, giggling and smiling. it's the best.
dad is pretty absent, but i care less and less every single day. my baby fills me up in so many far more important ways. i don't have room in my heart for all of that pain anymore. he's the one who is really missing out on something here, and the best thing i can do is be a happy mama for her. hopefully he'll get his head together before she's old enough to be hurt by his unreliability. yes, i still ache over everything that's happened. but not as much as i used to. we deserve so much more than that.
we're ladies about town too...we went on quite a few biiig hikes this week for the first time (one with texanatheart and her boys that was great
) and physically, i'm just about normal again...in much better shape than i thought. we walked 6 miles yesterday, and i definitely hurt from it but i feel so good today. hormonally, i'm pretty much back to normal too, but it's like a much better and different normal than before. i'm digging it.
yeah, we have our bad days - eden had tummy troubles that had us up most of the night but we worked through it and she's happily napping now. i lost my job, but she's thriving and as far as i'm concerned, nothing else is even remotely as important. we are slowly figuring out how our life is going to be, and are supported by so many people that just want to help.
on a personal note, a man that i shared a mutual attraction with in the past (that was never acted upon) got in touch and we're meeting tomorrow night. likely just a friend thing, but still nice, since the only man i've had contact with in a long time is one that constantly hurts and disappoints me.
it really feels like things are starting to turn around. i'm so grateful for this perfect little baby. she completes me in so many ways.
hopefully your eyes didn't glaze over from reading all of that