I have had ppd in the past

[corysmilk]

I didn't know what it was at first. i told my dr. that i wish there was one day that i did't feel like i hated him. she put me on antiddepressents. well they worked and i was able to form some sort of bond with my son. I say that because i still find it hard to relate to him [he is 10]. that is really sad i some times wonderwhy. i was young nursing wasn't working out. i figured if he didn'y need me to feed him wherer was my place. i felt i had failed. but i had #2 and bf when smoothly, enough haha. but at 11 months was put on traqulizers cause of severe ppd. i was closer to her and i still am so happy i got to bf for 11 months wow thats what a mommy is

well...... now # 3 he was planned he was wanted. I don't feel bad I feel very good. PLEASE don't judge; me but, after alot of talkind with my dr I decided to stay on meds through out preg. and am still on them while i bf # 3. have a starting to see a therapist in two weeks and i feel great cause i will get to do baby lead weaning. that has always been what i wanted.

some times it is hard to belive what we beat our selfs up about

thanks for listening anyone else on any medication??????/

[gilnikche]

I have been on Zoloft since Sept. 1997. This was my second child. My son was 3 weeks old. He nursed until he was 4 y.o.

After researching as much as I could; I decided to get pregnant again. She was born in 2000. She nursed until she was 3 1/2. This was the first time I experienced how wonderful pregnancy & the newborn period could be!

I just had a baby in Sept. 2003. Once again everything has gone beautifully.


I certainly would never judge you for taking a neccessary medication. those who judge have simply not been in your shoes.

[corysmilk]

I know what you mean. I finally do enjoy the newborn period. I wonder about long term efects on the children? my dr says that they will be fine I hope soo





um....... sorry about all the spelling mistakes in my original post. hard to type and bf:LOL

[gilnikche]

I try to keep abreast of the current studies on SSRI's & breastfeeding. I have used these keywords in a Google search.

www.google.com

I have also found good info through the library. The librarian can help you with a perodical search (includes medical journals).

Back in 1997; I volunteered for a UCLA study on breastfeeding & antidepressants. I had to express BM & babe had his blood drawn. At that time; they were unable to detect any metabolytes in his blood (and I was at Max doseage).

Stick around & let us know how you are doing!

[lauraess]

You are not judged here by me and others, the question is do you judge yourself????
It sounds like you thought a lot about it and your decisiion is made.
Guilt comes easy to us just as ohhhs and ahhhs at babies smiling face. let what you can go. do something with what you can.

when I went on meds after my second was born I prayed and prayed and thats not easy for me, but I knew I couldnt go on hurting myself and my family in the state of mind I was in. somethings we can turn over, do our best and let go of the rest.
I too enjoyed babyhood and motherhood and life like never before in my life. ~after the meds. Why did I wait so long?? GUILT. Gets you every time.
Laura