OK, sickeningly (is that a word?) I have been writing down baby names that I hear and like
!!! What is wrong with me? It must be some kind of weird hormonal thing your body does to you every now and then, to get you feeling all warm and fuzzy about having baby, and then you're trapped! LOL... I have no room in my life for another little one right now, but I do have that inkling for a newborn every now and again. Plus, since I just turned 24, I feel OLD sometimes (I know-- stupid). And, if I have a baby next year, I'll already be 47 by the time he/she turns 18. DH and I want to be young and frisky when the kids move out, so we have to plan this out... We need to have another baby in the next year or two and then be done! :LOL
About personal time: I just get to a point where I'm a big ball of stress and no one wants to be around me, so DH sends me out, or lets me just chill in our room. I love exercising, and its been helping me get rid of stress and get my old body back. It has gotten so much better lately since Zach doesn't need to nurse all the time. For awhile there, before he took solids, I was constantly attached and a walking time-bomb. If anyone said anything
remotely insulting about me or Zach (ie: "Are you sure he needs to eat again???") I'd burst into tears. Partly because of my insecurities with my own insticual parenting choices, and partly because my hormones were a mess from recently becoming a mother, and partly because I resented Zach a little bit for being such a boob-aholic and never giving me a moment's peace! But, a few hours a week at Curves, (and a few minutes a day knelt at a mirror with candles and a sage stick) have helped tremendously! I just finally came to the point where I HAD to have some "me" time, and if that meant Zach had to cry a bit and DH had his hands full for a little while each day, so be it. Now, I appreciate Zach's bonding with me more, like when he gets excited when I walk in the door from running errands. And I appreciate DH's bond with him more, too, since it allows me some time away!
Re: sleeping. Zachary is either nursed to sleep, rocked to sleep, or bounced to sleep (a Grammy and Auntie trick that works pretty well!). He usually stays asleep when I put him in his crib, but if he's only lightly sleeping he'll wake up and I nurse him back to sleep, etc. He would cry everytime I set him down when he was little. It was so frustrating- I would nurse him to sleep, lay him down, he'd wake up, I'd nurse him again, over and over. I didn't give up though, I just kept trying to put him down in his cradle or crib, and finally he figured out that he could stay asleep and everything was ok. There's one major flaw in his sleeping though- he won't sleep anywhere but in his own bed, unless he's in his carseat or being held. When we go to Mexico he has a little crib there, but he doesn't sleep very long in it. He rarely falls asleep in his stroller while we're out. He does like the Maya Wrap, and that has been a Godsend when we're out shopping. We're working on getting him to sleep through the night in his own bed right now. Not getting very far, but I won't give up!