first of all you are absolutely amazing second you are worried about your baby but your mother is worried about her baby. she is probably not trying to be unsupportive she might be worried about your health, worried that you are not able to enoy your LO, and trying to make sure stopping does not make you a failure and is not something to feel guilty about. whem i started relactating my mother acted a lot like yours. your mother and my mother can start a support group. i just stopped telling her anything new i was trying
i know you have probaby heard this a zillion times but it wasnt until i took it to the extreme that i made progress. now our situations are different but as far as really learning to nurse and finally starting to build my milk supply our turning point was an uber nursing vacation. my stress from trying to make nursing work was making both me me and ds nuerotic and it was killing milk supply.
dp took 3 days off of work and my best friend stayed with us for 5 days while me and hung out skin to skin in the bed or in the bath and nursed. we watched tv, read, ate food dp and friend brought to me, drank water and tea and relaxed. i needed emotional space from lactaids, breast pumps, and stupid freaking scales. dp and my friend would take ds and weigh him outside the room. they offered supplemental formula with a spoon and they changed all his diapers. after a day or so i started to relax .i hadnt realized how frustrated and stressed i was until i got enough distance to relax. obviously things werent perfect atfter those five days but i stoppped constantly worrying and got to see what i was accomplishing vs what i wasnt. i alsoo stopped being lact aid and breast pump obssessed. ds was content nursing at night and i stopped waking up to pump. my milk supply took a huge leap when i started getting more sleep.
im sorry if i sound redundant i just know that trying so hard can be frustataing, exhausting, and demoralizing... all of which make what you are doing that much harder.
no matter what happens you are so very very strong and absolutey amazing