hiya, feels like it's been ages since i was living on this forum sifting through support for my first birth, my homebirth. dd is almost 3mo now (totally happy and healthy, and i'm on my way to healing) but have yet to write my birth story. i fear i'll forget so much of it and the incredibly important pp stuff that has occurred in these last few weeks but have been pretty hesitant in even beginning to think about writing. sadly writing has always been my outlet for sanity, healing really. i just can't seem to get the motivation... anybody else encounter this? admittedly i also slightly fear that reading others' stories of inspiration may bring back some trauma that i may not be able to work out. how about the time to do so? i feel as if i just need to sit down when my mind is right and work it all out in text. the only windows of opportunity feel like it's when she is sleeping in her wrap or sling on me, but is sporadic at best, and between these new throes of motherhood and identity (and also, the whirlwhind of new hormones) i don't know just when i'll be in the right mindset.
love!x
love!x
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