No surgery tomorrow. Her kidney levels are going way down but arent at the regular newborn level yet. Im ok with waiting, I would rather wait longer than have her kidneys fail after surgery! Her lungs are great, her breathing is great, her EVERYTHING looks good, even those kidney levels are regulating. She pulling her Leeds off (sticky monitor things on her body) and rubbing her head on her blankets to get the oxygen tube out of her nose! Acting like a "real baby". The nurse told me yesterday that shes hitting regular milestones too!
Its weird but Im finding a real balance between being a "regular" mom and a NICU mom. It IS hard having her there but Im so pleased with the care shes getting that its really easy to leave her. The nurses and docs love all those kids and I always hear them soothing them and talking in silly voices. Today, she has a male nurse (one of 2 in the whole NICU) and when she was fussing he called her Little Sweetheart, and Little Love. They are just so amazing with her. EVERY doctor and specialist take time out to learn not only our babys name but our names. I saw a nurse type notes on the comp the other day and it said "Isabella is in the 2nd grade". They write notes down so that everyone knows personal info about us!!! They are always asking about OUR feelings and dont even think twice to give out hugs when they see our tears!
The social worker (assigned to every single baby) was wondering today if Im holding back feelings and do I need to see a doc for PPD because she couldnt believe I could be this happy. I told her that I have the greatest support from family, friends, my online friends, nurses, docs AND the baby is actually doing amazing. I literally have nothing to be upset about!
I am having a problem with my BFF. In the 3 and a half weeks since dd2 was born, she has called me a total of 1 time and emailed/text me 4 times. They were all about manicures and celeb gossip. DH says she probably cant handle "real life" situations and shes scared of what going on. I called her the other night an after talking for 20 min about our friends wedding planning, she asked how the baby was. I told her good news and then it went back to her boyfriends bday party plans.
she has NEVER been close to something scary like this so Im trying to be understanding. She did a cruise to Mexico so I said she couldnt see the baby but its been almost a month, should I bring her to the hospital? Maybe if she sees dd2, shell realize how much I need her? Sidenote: She started crying a few weeks before I delivered because she couldnt believe that she was so close to meeting a person that was going to be in her life forever and that she was going to love so much! Her and my dd1 proclaimed their BFF status a few years ago, so I know she loves dd2 already!
Thanks for letting me vent! I found a blog I started years ago and DH suggested I start writing again, it would probably make me feel better!
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