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post #41 of 562
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Originally Posted by geekgolightly View Post

I still check every time I wipe and I would still be doing pregnancy tests if I hadn't run out of strips.
I check every time too. I have poas using opks a few times just to see the line turn super dark. I find it comforting

F/X for everyone who is waiting for test results!
post #42 of 562
Hello all I am pregnant after loss, and for me, there'll never be a "safe" time, as you can imagine. I know there are actually several mamas with later term losses here too - it will be good to have each other I think!

Mind you, when I see the ultrasound and there's a heartbeat *fingers crossed* in two weeks on Friday (can't come soon enough) I will be able to rest a tiny bit easier.

Problem is, I SOOOOO soo soo so want and need and must have this baby. Honestly I really think I would be just crumpled if something went wrong, even in the very early stages. I really, REALLY hope this one sticks. I'm feeling so vulnerable and so emotional at this stage - pregnancy hormones really have softened me up an awful lot...

But we're all in this together.

*HUGE hugs* XXX
post #43 of 562
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Originally Posted by JayJay View Post
Problem is, I SOOOOO soo soo so want and need and must have this baby. Honestly I really think I would be just crumpled if something went wrong, even in the very early stages. I really, REALLY hope this one sticks. I'm feeling so vulnerable and so emotional at this stage - pregnancy hormones really have softened me up an awful lot...

But we're all in this together.

*HUGE hugs* XXX
Yeah, me too. From my siggy, I am sure that you can all tell that I lost my infant son in December. And that is still really raw, and since I got pregnant, the additional hormones leave me on the verge of tears almost all the time. I cried at work for the second time that I went back on mother's day. I really really want another child, and I am probably the only person on earth who sympathizes with the octo mom (don't get me wrong, she's a little nutty), because if I could have eight babies to love, I would take all of them. I used to think that an early term loss would be a blip, grief, loss, and then moving forward, but I think an early term loss could be totally crippling.

Anyways, stick baby stick.
post #44 of 562
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Originally Posted by Carmen358
Try to remember that there is just as good a chance (if not better) that this pregnancy will be wonderful and smooth. We all know there is a chance of m/c and because we're scared we focus on that. But really, if you look at it logically, there is absolutely no reason why it won't be fine! Instead of focusing on the chance that it won't work out, focus on the chance that it will work out Sound simple right?! I also find it helpful to remember to welcome the little bean and try and be as calm as possible to create a nice environment in my body.
Thank you for this. I am trying to remind myself of this but it's so hard. OUr month of June is insanely busy and I keep thinking how terribly hard the month is going to be if we get bad news at my first appt. (June 4th). It's terrible to think like that. Every time I visualize myself pregnant at Christmas I get choked up, afraid that it's not going to happen.

JayJay and rsummer it's good to see you here. I'm praying and crossing fingers for all of us.
post #45 of 562
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Originally Posted by JayJay View Post
Hello all I am pregnant after loss, and for me, there'll never be a "safe" time, as you can imagine. I know there are actually several mamas with later term losses here too - it will be good to have each other I think!

Mind you, when I see the ultrasound and there's a heartbeat *fingers crossed* in two weeks on Friday (can't come soon enough) I will be able to rest a tiny bit easier.

Problem is, I SOOOOO soo soo so want and need and must have this baby. Honestly I really think I would be just crumpled if something went wrong, even in the very early stages. I really, REALLY hope this one sticks. I'm feeling so vulnerable and so emotional at this stage - pregnancy hormones really have softened me up an awful lot...

But we're all in this together.

*HUGE hugs* XXX
Glad (well not glad, but you know) to have you here. I have been following your posts (not in a creepy way, I swear!) and wanting only good things for you.

Hope the next two weeks passes quickly for you!
post #46 of 562
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Originally Posted by rsummer View Post
Yeah, me too. From my siggy, I am sure that you can all tell that I lost my infant son in December. And that is still really raw, and since I got pregnant, the additional hormones leave me on the verge of tears almost all the time. I cried at work for the second time that I went back on mother's day. I really really want another child, and I am probably the only person on earth who sympathizes with the octo mom (don't get me wrong, she's a little nutty), because if I could have eight babies to love, I would take all of them. I used to think that an early term loss would be a blip, grief, loss, and then moving forward, but I think an early term loss could be totally crippling.

Anyways, stick baby stick.
I'm so sorry for your loss. There are no words.

Glad that you found us so that we can support you through this time.
post #47 of 562
Well, my bathroom started getting rained on by sewage from the upstairs apartment today. The landlord, DH, and the upstairs tenant were in there working on it until ten p.m. DH says its fixed but its all like nightmare to me.
Right after I found I was pregnant last time we had to tear the same bathroom apart because of mold and we lived without a bathroom for 3 months, we should have moved out then but we had no money and no place to go.
Now it is happening again, I want to move I want to get away from this nightmare but DH want to wait until he can qualify to buy a house in october (he has a bankruptcy). I feel so trapped here now.
post #48 of 562
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Well, my bathroom started getting rained on by sewage from the upstairs apartment today. The landlord, DH, and the upstairs tenant were in there working on it until ten p.m. DH says its fixed but its all like nightmare to me.
Right after I found I was pregnant last time we had to tear the same bathroom apart because of mold and we lived without a bathroom for 3 months, we should have moved out then but we had no money and no place to go.
Now it is happening again, I want to move I want to get away from this nightmare but DH want to wait until he can qualify to buy a house in october (he has a bankruptcy). I feel so trapped here now.

October is so soon, really just around the corner...
post #49 of 562
So, I'm now just about as far as I was last time when I had the miscarriage, and I'd been spotting for several days before that happened, so I'm starting to feel a bit more relaxed... But, yeah, 51 days along, 29dpo...

I suppose I ought to get around to telling my mom soon... (my parents have been married for over 35 years, so telling my mom means my dad will know soon enough)
You'd think with my parents knowing I've wanted kids forever, and being married and 31, I'd just blurt it out or something, right? I overthink things sometimes...
post #50 of 562
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Originally Posted by RoseRed View Post
Well, my bathroom started getting rained on by sewage from the upstairs apartment today. The landlord, DH, and the upstairs tenant were in there working on it until ten p.m. DH says its fixed but its all like nightmare to me.
Right after I found I was pregnant last time we had to tear the same bathroom apart because of mold and we lived without a bathroom for 3 months, we should have moved out then but we had no money and no place to go.
Now it is happening again, I want to move I want to get away from this nightmare but DH want to wait until he can qualify to buy a house in october (he has a bankruptcy). I feel so trapped here now.

That just sounds plain crummy. Sorry mama!
post #51 of 562
I woke up with a sharp stitch type cramp on the right side today. Ugh. It has since pretty much gone away and I'm actually wondering if it's related to a bowel thing (constipated...). I have to admit it scared me!
post #52 of 562
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Originally Posted by carmen358 View Post
I woke up with a sharp stitch type cramp on the right side today. Ugh. It has since pretty much gone away and I'm actually wondering if it's related to a bowel thing (constipated...). I have to admit it scared me!
Yeah, I've had a few of those. A few days ago, though, I was sitting on the exercize ball I never use (because it was convenient for looking through the books I was looking through) that back last summer, I was sitting on that ball all the time because I was having pretty severe back pain, and I realized it was actually very different from the bloating type pain I'm getting now... At this point, I think I've managed to figure out almost the exact path of my intestines...
post #53 of 562
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Originally Posted by zejh View Post
Yeah, I've had a few of those. A few days ago, though, I was sitting on the exercize ball I never use (because it was convenient for looking through the books I was looking through) that back last summer, I was sitting on that ball all the time because I was having pretty severe back pain, and I realized it was actually very different from the bloating type pain I'm getting now... At this point, I think I've managed to figure out almost the exact path of my intestines...
Haha. It's amazing how you start to listen to your body so intently. Which isn't a bad thing but it can get tiring
post #54 of 562
We did see a lovely yolk sac, a fetal pole and a brand-new !

I am loving this doctor (and I never thought I would say that bout any doctor!) He is a no-nonsense guy but very supportive of my needs. I am going back next Thursday for another look because the anxiety of a two week wait would be a bit much for me right now. Our last loss occurred at 9w3d after seeing the heartbeat twice.

This is a big milestone and I am rejoicing in JingleBell's excellent development at 5w6d!

Thanks again for being with me through this!

Amy
post #55 of 562
Thread Starter 
Amy- : for a heartbeat!!!!! I got goosebumps reading your post! I can't wait to see that from my bean!
post #56 of 562
Great news, Amy

I just got back from GP and I will be going for an early u/s next week...a week earlier than I wanted to but she wants to make sure everything is ok. I'll be just 7wks then. She is also doing another beta hcg and prog. which I'll do tomorrow and get the results on Saturday.

I really, really hope everything looks ok on the u/s...even if it just gives me a small bit of comfort.
post #57 of 562
I'm in. I'm a worry wort. I have my u/s/appt. on Monday. I see my midwife on June 1st. I have this fear the baby passed away and there won't be a heartbeat or it will be a blighted ovum. :sigh: I'm trying to stay positive.
post #58 of 562
So, apparently I have a bladder infection (bad) so that caused the cramping. That's good and bad. Now I have to take an antibiotic to get rid of it. And I was pretty tired and sickly today. I've noticed if I "take it slow" and eat certain foods I feel great. If I eat anything remotely greasy or high in sugar I'm sick as a dog (makes sense). So...I'm back on the : wagon for now. My appt is Monday (changed it b/c I didn't have a sitter for next Thursday) so I hope I feel better after that. I never, EVER thought I would be so worried this early in pregnancy. Oh my!
post #59 of 562
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Originally Posted by ekblad9 View Post
So, apparently I have a bladder infection (bad) so that caused the cramping. That's good and bad. Now I have to take an antibiotic to get rid of it. And I was pretty tired and sickly today. I've noticed if I "take it slow" and eat certain foods I feel great. If I eat anything remotely greasy or high in sugar I'm sick as a dog (makes sense). So...I'm back on the : wagon for now. My appt is Monday (changed it b/c I didn't have a sitter for next Thursday) so I hope I feel better after that. I never, EVER thought I would be so worried this early in pregnancy. Oh my!
Yay for a bladder infection! (Not really, but you know what I mean.... )
post #60 of 562
Thread Starter 
Amy- Sorry about the bladder infection!

Brittany- Welcome to our group here. I have that same fear too.

Carmen- I hope that your u/s goes well!
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