I apologize in advance for the length and the angst.
3:00am I was woken up by horrific cramps, the worst I can remember (and I used to miss school because of the pain). We were up till 5:30-6:00 am, the only thing that helped was a hot bath. I started bleeding pretty much like my period at that point. We went back to sleep and this morning when I woke up I'd passed a huge clotted thing, with a small pink area, and now the bleeding is just like a heavy period. Still have cramps, but they aren't as bad.
I called my Dr. office to let them know. The UV of a nurse wanted me back into the ER. I'm having a flipping m/c and if it hasn't quite happened yet it's only a matter of time. I don't want to go back in, pay good money, to have them tell me either what they did yesterday, or what I already know... I am no longer a momma
I am not hemorrhaging out, I am not dizzy or lightheaded, I am just having a natural m/c.
It's the last week of classes, I was supposed to have a pathology lecture on tetrology (the study of why babies have birth defects or m/c) I'm nto going. I'll listen to it before the exam but I am NOT GOING.
We wanted this baby. We need a name for him. Possibly worst of all, we can't try for another 2 years. This was our oops, our perfectly timed oops, that must have been meant for us to have. Only, obviously the baby wasn't meant for us to have.