I need some help or advice or something. I have had the most horrible year ever. My daughter is 9 months old. Her dad is going through major depression and it is affecting me so bad that I have fell into POST PARTUM Depression. Birth Control Side Effect Statistic.. or maybe its me blaming my depression on him......I think.....I have every symptom in the book. I really cant put my finger on it. But this is my third child and I was never depressed or angry or full of hate until after my third child was born, I resent my family for reasons that I shouldnt, and I resent my self, and Im mad at the world and I am blaming everyone else.
I laugh at a funny movie, then five minutes later yell at my kids cause they are playing to loudly and want to ground them for a week. I mean they are always grounded now. My poor boys. I even walk out of places and drop everything Im doing because my anger gets so elevated that I feel like Im going to panic or scream at someone. They might call the cops LOL. I have noticed when I get extrememly mad at Dad because hes fighting with me over me being different and not the same person I used to be that I hit him and say very mean things that I would not normally ever say and I am in denial and say its him. I can also feel soreness in my heart when I get overly mad and worked up....This shouldnt be happening Im only 33 years old.
I cant control my major mood swings from one minute to the next. I am a complete emotional rollercoaster.
Then, I read up on Minera IUD and it says that it causes major mood swings and depression.... So Im getting it taken out next week to see if it helps, But if not I feel doomed. Tears.
Anyone think its that birth control. I could care less about having it removed. I have no desire for sex anyway as Im always so exausted. I feel like Im outside my body, lost control and looking at someone else in my body.
Maybe its everything. I dont even know how to get better or where to start. Its like trying to fix another person, because me, myself and, I are lost and I cant find her anymore.
I have no support from dad unfortunatelly, he laughed at me and downplayed my "new" idea that it could be my birth control causing all this madness.
Ug. Tears
I laugh at a funny movie, then five minutes later yell at my kids cause they are playing to loudly and want to ground them for a week. I mean they are always grounded now. My poor boys. I even walk out of places and drop everything Im doing because my anger gets so elevated that I feel like Im going to panic or scream at someone. They might call the cops LOL. I have noticed when I get extrememly mad at Dad because hes fighting with me over me being different and not the same person I used to be that I hit him and say very mean things that I would not normally ever say and I am in denial and say its him. I can also feel soreness in my heart when I get overly mad and worked up....This shouldnt be happening Im only 33 years old.
I cant control my major mood swings from one minute to the next. I am a complete emotional rollercoaster.
Then, I read up on Minera IUD and it says that it causes major mood swings and depression.... So Im getting it taken out next week to see if it helps, But if not I feel doomed. Tears.
Anyone think its that birth control. I could care less about having it removed. I have no desire for sex anyway as Im always so exausted. I feel like Im outside my body, lost control and looking at someone else in my body.
Maybe its everything. I dont even know how to get better or where to start. Its like trying to fix another person, because me, myself and, I are lost and I cant find her anymore.
I have no support from dad unfortunatelly, he laughed at me and downplayed my "new" idea that it could be my birth control causing all this madness.
Ug. Tears
