I like looking at our upcoming birthday as just another day, integrated into our lives, just like AF doesn't stop the world, birth shouldn't either, and the transistion should be as smooth and fluid as possible, not an end and begining, but a transistion that is just as vital as the before and after.
I've been visualizing a painfree/orgasmic birth this time. The first I wasn't nearly as knowledgable as I am now. The ultimate plan is to birth as close to completely naturally as possible. We are planning a UC, but are keeping all options open as possibilities. I don't know what labor will bring this time so we have the default UC plan, but we have also very flexably planned every next step that may need to be taken, and how we will try to maintain our atmosphere of birth. We have tried to prepare for almost everything in our laidback fluid way, but I won't have hospital bags packed or such.
Our whole goal is to listen to my body and gut and try our best to accomidate what my body may want or need to get this baby out and work with it, in relity I can use this plan no matter where I birth(especially since if I do go into the hospital I plan to barricade myself alone in the room with DH, lol) However my hot tub is a big part of my dreams, as well as not tearing.
I am feeling strong urges to get a little more birth art done in preparation, especially with pastels, since so far all I've really touched into is clay.
One sculpture turned into the labia/vaginal just opening up. It is the perfect shape for me to slide my thumb back and forth smoothly within, and fits perfect in either hand. Another one is of a woman on her knees holding down under her belly. Each one just started as a clump and came out like that. The first one I did however was a cross between the two that never got finished, just remoistened and put back in the clay jar, but it was turning into just the spread bent legs, with the thumb gliding part right btween them.
At this point I think I need to stop feeling so much and try to pul out the images I have, since only sensations may become very overwhelming during labor. Also I haven't been able to fire my clay yet so if I end up laboring in the tub I'm afraid they wouldn't carry their full created vibe because I won't be able to hold them(turn to mush). So I need a few focal points to put up in my birthing area that are more visual.
Sorry went a little off track there. But it's nice to write about my art and give it words.