Wow, so much to respond to! I love this group, it is so sincere and supportive!!!
I'll start with Court, because
: I'm so glad to hear from you! I've missed you!!! I know how hard it is to get your hopes up, so I'm tempted not to encourage you, but I'm happy to see such a great chart from you, and I hope you test soon, although you should do what feels best emotionally.
I'm glad your dh is back. I found that my dh felt the m/c just a strongly emotionally, he just dealt with it differently. Many of our arguments since then have been from me assuming he's not hurting because he didn't show it or talk about it all the time. NOT TRUE. He was hurting just as badly in his own way. I hope that you and your dh find a way to help each other emotionally even when your ways of dealing with it are different.
Kelly, absolutely don't feel bad protecting yourself by not going to these showers. People who have not been through this cannot be expected to understand what you're feeling, nor to say appropriate things. do what feels right to you.
lisko, I am so sorry that you went through all that suspense and hope to be let down. Especially when you were in such a harmonized place.
I was hoping that we could graduate together. Now our cycles are lined up, though. Maybe next month we can graduate at the same time.
In the meantime, let's both find our way back into our happy place where we're not so wigged out about this, and let's do lots of this:
Have some wine (check), watch a good movie, go for a long walk, read an entire book, eat a bag of M&Ms(check), snuggle with DH(check)
ps - Good suggestions.
Beloved and Lauren, thanks for the hugs! I really care about you ladies, too!!! Lauren, I'm up to 14 months of trying, and I'm wondering how you did it. Weren't you 15 months? It's exhausting.
AFM - I made an appointment for me and dh with our doctor/midwife. If there's something killing our little fertilized miracles, I want to know it. I really feel like I was implanting this month. Maybe it just wasn't a healthy bundle of cells, but if my body is doing something to them, something we could fix, I don't want to wait any longer to find out. The appointment isn't until August 10th. Man, I'll be in my tww. That seems so far away. But at least it's a step. I guess that gives us one more try "au naturale" before we see if there's something else we should be doing. I'm going to try to maintain my relaxed attitude, because I think it worked in the fertilization aspect this month, anyway. It definitely helped my sanity. Thanks for letting me babble. I love you ladies, and I'm so glad this thread is here! I love the exclusivity, and if the name changes I hope that it's not too cool a name that more people want to join.
: What a snob I am.