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[Tear78]

Originally Posted by MaerynPearl

Of course its not stupid! Think of who you are asking! This entire forum will find that perfectly normal lol

: Beloved, what you're feeling is perfectly normal.

[BelovedK]

I have an OT thing of interest


When I got pregnant with DS (14), his father basically took off I partnered with a friend and went on to marry him and have DD with him (we are now divorced, but friends) Well, Clay (birthfather) would call every year or two to see how we were doing, but never wanted to see DS (he met him once when DS was 3 mo old) when I finally married M, Clay stopped calling,and wasn't heard from for over 9 years.

DS has been having trouble (smoking, drinking ) and I have been trying to get a handle on things, he is at an important time in his development where he could go either way, and has been expressing an interest in who his dad is. SOOOO, I did some internet sleuthing, but Clay is NOWHERE to be found, BUT I remembered his mother's name (not common) and that his brother was a DR (but didn't know bro's name) so through that info I actually found his brother (it wasn't easy, and I am proud of my sleuthing abilities )

I talked to his bro (his family had no idea about my son) and through him, found and talked to Clay (just got off the phone with him : ) He has said that he would see my son, and I am a bit worried he will crap out, so I am not telling my son until the visit is imminent.

That is not TTC related, but I am excited for my DS, and hope it will all turn out ok (it wouldn't hurt to have some $$ help for DS too : C has never helped with anything)

OK, OT over now something TTC related, The psychics on TAO thread think I will have 2 more DC (but within 12 months, seems like a long time) : and that it is a girl and a boy (maybe twins) AND I contacted the baby psychic and paid for a short reading, AND I called yet another one for yet another reading!!!!

I am kind of embarrassed about it, but I do feel a bit desperate and eager

[KellyTTC#1]

Beloved: I agree with the others... test away!
I love the sleuthing... I hope the reunion/first visit pans out.
I hope the psychic is correct... twins would be nice!

[MaerynPearl]

Originally Posted by KellyTTC#1

twins would be nice!

I dunno about *nice* considering it puts what could be a normally regular pregnancy into the high risk category... and if you would be high risk already it only makes it worse.

[BelovedK]

Well, ideally I would want one baby, but twins would be welcomed. I want my homebirth, so anything that puts me at higher risk will make me nervous. I still haven't heard back from the 2 psychics I am a complete


I POAS this morning and got another BFP, but fainter this time. At least it is going in the right direction. My temps were down too Maybe normalcy will return in the next day or so. I really hope so. (I miss BDing)

[lisko15]

Tear78 - How was your vacation???? I hope you had fun!

KellyTTC#1 - Hey, where are you in your cycle currently? I didn't know if IUI #2 has already happened or not...

BelovedK - I hope a reunion (if it happens) with DS and his birth father would be helpful. In some ways I think it might worry me though, if DS is already tending towards some mild self-destructive behavior at such a young age, that seeing his birth father, and then maybe the reunion doesn't live up to whatever expectations he might have in his "child-mind", that this may send him on a further downward spiral. Maybe I'm being overly paranoid... maybe it would really help him to see his birth father. However, if I were you, I'd want to make sure that his father is currently the type of person that WILL be a good role model for him and not the other way around.

(I guess these parent/child things concern me. My XH has never been continuously stable and sometimes it really worries me the effect that he could have on DD in the future.)

I hope that everything works out for you in the baby making department. Slow down a little bit though... breathe... and take it easy! You are going to tire yourself out mentally...

AFM - Not much to relate. I could figure out what CD I'm on... but I'm not going to. I don't even know that DH & I should try overly hard this cycle. My MD appointment is the 24th, and I'd really like to know everything is a-ok.

So I might start up our new thread today sometime. I'm at work and it appears very, very slow. So... yeah, might as well take advantage of it!

How about this for a title:

The Bitter Sushi Ladies TTC - August

A little bit of sarcasm thrown in for good measure. Then I'll do a little blurb on the first page about how most of us are at or past the 12+ month mark, many are dealing with previous losses, and all seem to be dealing with various forms of infertility.

Any thoughts and/or comments???

[BelovedK]

OOO, I LOVEit!! I am a bitter sushi woman I am going to treat DH to some tonight (if he agrees, I have been sushi crazy since the m/c) I guess I am up to 9 months, including the CP, and the m/c.

I keep checking my email to see if the baby psychic responded, and nothing yet. I am a bit miffed. That was a while ago, I haven't heard from the other one either

You are right, I DO need to slow down. I am having a very bad day, I wrote about it in the ONE thread. I cried this morning bc DH would not go to breakfast with me, he caved and we had a miserable time. I was a bit upset by the BFP this morning. I am not going to test for a few days. I will test right before our honeymoon. What if I get a BFP this month, I will second guess it to death, I have seen so many.

[BelovedK]

Wow, I must post here alot I was the last one

I wanted to share my reading from the baby psychic I hope conception is Oct/Nov, and not the birth

On Fri, Jul 31, 2009 at 10:44 PM, Baby Psychic <[e-mail]> wrote:
Hi Kelly,
I see a daughter coming to you. She is being related to October/November. This could be conception, when you find out you're pregnant, or birth month of your daughter. She will be a big daddy's girl right from the start. She will love to read and be read to from a very young age. If she gets the chance and teaching I see her being a child who would want to learn to read before she's even in school. She'll be very bright and intelligent, but she'll only put her full energy into things she's interested in. Just remember that she's more than capable with all her schoolwork, so find ways to make it fun for her and she'll get great grades! I see her being teacher's pet in school because her teacher's will really see how full of potential she is. As a baby, I see her being less focused. One day she'll be focused on talking. The next day it will be crawling. The next day she'll refuse to do either and only play with her toys quietly. Though she'll be a great baby and toddler and very easy to manage on a daily basis. She won't have the "all go, no stop" attitude of most small children. She won't mind having some down time.

You also have another female energy around you. So, if you choose to have more children after the birth of this daughter, I feel another daughter will come next.

Blessings,
Lydia

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For entertainment purposes only.

Thank you,
The Baby Psychic

[BelovedK]

I forgot to mention, she has a 90% accuracy rating

[BelovedK]

I'm back

Tear, you home yet??

Where are all of the bitter sushi ladies???

[Tear78]

Originally Posted by BelovedK

I'm back

Tear, you home yet??

Where are all of the bitter sushi ladies???

lol...Beloved, you're so cute. :

We're about to enter Canada on the coast. It's soooooooooooo relaxing. If all goes as usual, I should O in the next couple days, but we're being pretty mellow about it. Can't wait to see the new thread! We had sushi for dinner last night. mmmmmmm.... :

[Court]

Hey Tear, I think we're cycle buddies! I'm supposed to O in a couple days too!

Lis- thanks for the comment about the stupid long LP...I know you just went thru that too. what a mean thing to have happen.

OMG, I totally flipped out last cycle, btw. Completely lost my mind for a couple days. I'm really really gonna try not to let that happen this time. That's what I get for temping. My dh was sorta like, "whoa, maybe we should take a break from trying." I finally bounced back and feel normal and happy again, but wow, that was the worst I've felt I think during this whole year of trying. Something about hitting that year mark though.

So, I really want some sushi now. I don't have much to say I guess, just hi everyone and this is really hard. I'm having the thing happen where everyone around me is popping up pregnant. I swear my grandma is gonna call and tell me she's pregnant. I really need to work on ways of dealing. It's just hard to have a goal and to be so open-ended about it. That's not my personality. And I feel totally selfish saying any of this to girls who've experienced losses. That's part of the reason why I take such a long time to post, cause I feel so whiny.

alright, I'll be back when I think of something productive and positive to say, lol.

[BelovedK]

Court I think that venting here about those things IS productive and is a positive thing to do. It is good to have this thread to come to with like minded and compassionate women who are going through the same thing. I am at 9 months, and can imagine what that year mark will be like . I have been seeing pregnant women everywhere, and am surrounded by that and newborns. I still haven't seen one of my best friend's new baby, and I am really happy for her, i feel not a stitch of jealousy (ftowards HER), it was just so hard while m/cing to see a newborn. She was in tears for me, and it is still going to be hard for me to visit that first time. I remember talking to her when we were first trying, and then the next month she tried for one cycle and got preggers the first try. It is starting to get to me. I am actually moving to the place where I will be joining back in with the non stressors, and reclaiming my zen


I really am trying not to get my hopes up about this month being my month. I think I was starting to bc of being supposedly more fertile after a m/c. I would LIKE to not stress, and yes, I will probably test, but I don't want to make myself miserable.

Yes, I am still upset, but I don't want it to run me.

I'm trying so hard

[BelovedK]

Oh yeah, I am so not a zen queen it is faint, but has been that way for the last few days, wouldn't it be getting fainter by now?? That was with evening urine too, after drinking alot of water.

[lisko15]

Beloved. Give it time...

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