I'm right with you Beloved K, and I'm so sorry for your loss!
I'm Jennifer, 40 years old, 3 kids, and trying for # 4. I'm currently waiting for AF after my third (self diagnosed, but I've been through it twice before, so I know) chemical pregnancy, I had two before ds2 was born, and now this one. Basically for me I get a really faint BFP, and then like an idiot I keep testing, it never gets darker, and then turns negative. I'm strangely OK when this happens, but I do hope I get af soon so I don't need any outside intervention! DH and I are going to TTC until December, at which point he has decided he is too old
, but I'm trying to respect his feelings
I have no idea when I will O again, but I'm very regular, so I should know pretty soon once AF starts.