Any other previous loss or infertility mamas-to-be in this DDC? - Page 10

[jul511riv]

I feel baby kicks and stuff all the time...but then when I don't, I'm convinced baby is G-d Forbid dead and I'm just totally flipping out. I also have moments where I run to the bathroom to look at my underwear because I "felt something" which doesn't exactly feel like bleeding...but still...something...as if running to the bathroom to look would do anything about it.

I'm 17 weeks, btw.

Im really REALLY thinking about doing an ultrasound. I know that this is one of those things I should totally need to overcome, because, like, I don't NEED anyone to tell me there is a baby in there. I can just BELIEVE it...but sometimes I feel like I can't, ykwim?

[jabeen]

Well it's nice to know I'm not the only one having trouble relaxing, thanks everyone. Though I think I'm becoming more able to look towards the future, now that I'm really showing, and everyone around me is talking about the baby. I had to buy maternity clothes--there's very little i can actually still fit into from my regular clothes--so that helps to make things seem more real too.
I REALLY think after the 20 wk u/s (where hopefully everything will be ok), I'll be able to relax a lot more. I hope for all our sakes we can start enjoying our pregnancies soon!!