in my 8th month...

[NaturalMindedMomma]

I just realized at 32 weeks I am in my eighth month. THIS is so crazy. This may be my last baby and I know it will be our last for QUITE a loooong time.

I want to meet our baby so badly. I want to hold her and nurse her, but at the same time, I know with the amount of children we have between us and my bi-polar disorder things are going to be hectic and this may be my last baby. I have enjoyed this pregnancy far more than Abrielle's. A part of me is getting a bit sad.

Anyone else feeling a little sad? Especially if it's your last?

[Jilian]

This is surely our last baby and I thought I'd feel sad but I really don't. I feel right. I am trying to enjoy the end of the pregnancy since it is the last time I will be pregnant but I feel happy about what the next chapter in our family life will hold. I have been giving away some of my maternity things (only the things that will not work for pp clothes) as I outgrow them and that has been a little sad. Passing on boy clothes is a little bit hard because some of the things were things both of my boys wore as newborns. They have sentimental value. But overall there aren't many feelings of sadness. I'm more excited for the future. I never thought I'd feel this way and this is how I know for sure that I am done with my childbearing years.

[Spring Sun]

I am hoping to have a few more kids, so I am not too worried about cherishing every moment of this pregnancy. But, you never know what may happen and I am at least enjoying feeling the life grow inside me.

Mostly, I am getting sad and sentimental about my baby no longer being the baby. It has been the three of us for so long. Now Elijah is 4 1/2 and life as we kno wit is about to look soo different. The entire tecture of my life is about to change.

What will it be like? Being a family of four...that kind of makes us this real family. Not just a young couple with a kid, kwim? Life with Elijah is so easy and good. He is such a sweet, kind, loving, creative soul. And becoming more independant. So now this new baby will come and be so dependent on us for years, and at the same time we will slowely be loosening out hold on Elijah.

I don't know, I guess I am more sad about my baby growing up.

[NaturalMindedMomma]

Jillian- I feel young to be DONE... Maybe that sounds silly, but I am only going to be 25 and I would have liked to have at least 3 children who are naturally MINE... I mean, I lvoe my stepkids, but they are completely different than my child. They are disciplined differently, they're affection even feels different to me. It's hard to explain. While I love them, they are not MINE. I am not resentful that our pasts may prevent us from adding anymore children, I am just sad that DP and I will only have 1 biological child together (although we are starting the adoption process of my 2 year old this week and sometimes when I think about my birth with her, for some reason my fiance is THERE in my head).

I am actually more resentful of my bi-polar disorder, which is severe. I feel like it has limited my life in so many capacities. I feel angry that my brain just DOES NOT function properly. It feels like a handicap to me. I know on days when I am low that I shouldn't be and it makes it worse. When I SNAP at DF or DD it's so painful for me afterwards. I see the pain in their eyes and I loathe myself for that. To put anymore children through that seems selfish.

Anyway, I am rambling. Just sometimes it makes me sad and lately more so than ever.

[NaturalMindedMomma]

Originally Posted by Spring Sun

I am hoping to have a few more kids, so I am not too worried about cherishing every moment of this pregnancy. But, you never know what may happen and I am at least enjoying feeling the life grow inside me.

Mostly, I am getting sad and sentimental about my baby no longer being the baby. It has been the three of us for so long. Now Elijah is 4 1/2 and life as we kno wit is about to look soo different. The entire tecture of my life is about to change.

What will it be like? Being a family of four...that kind of makes us this real family. Not just a young couple with a kid, kwim? Life with Elijah is so easy and good. He is such a sweet, kind, loving, creative soul. And becoming more independant. So now this new baby will come and be so dependent on us for years, and at the same time we will slowely be loosening out hold on Elijah.

I don't know, I guess I am more sad about my baby growing up.

I also feel guilty for Abrielle not being the baby anymore. I love her so much. I want her to know that. I feel like sometimes she might not. Ok NOW I am crying.. LOL DAMN HORMONES...

[GenomicsGirl]

This will be our last, I'm 99% sure. This will be my 4th c-section, and I haven't discussed if it's even possible for me to safely maintain a 5th pregnancy! But I'm older, and this pregnancy has been tough on me physically. At 35 and with an almost-6, a 4, and a 2, I'm emotionally and physically maxed right now. I'm sad that this is our last. I'm not cherishing the pregnancy. I'm really forward to meeting my little man, though! Only 9 more weeks for me!!!

[NaturalMindedMomma]

Originally Posted by GenomicsGirl

This will be our last, I'm 99% sure. This will be my 4th c-section, and I haven't discussed if it's even possible for me to safely maintain a 5th pregnancy! But I'm older, and this pregnancy has been tough on me physically. At 35 and with an almost-6, a 4, and a 2, I'm emotionally and physically maxed right now. I'm sad that this is our last. I'm not cherishing the pregnancy. I'm really forward to meeting my little man, though! Only 9 more weeks for me!!!

Shannon- I hear ya... I'm one of those people who doesn't do pregnancy well, period. Eventhough this is only my second. I also have to take into account my body and it's limits. ((HUGS)) to you on being so busy. I give you credit. It can be really crazy...

[GenomicsGirl]

My first two pregnancies were wonderful, to be honest. My 3rd was tough and I was exhausted from chasing after 2 toddlers. She came early, and I wonder if nursing throughout the pregnancy AND being overly active contributed to her arrival. This one has been worse, though. My vericose veins have gotten progressively worse, my crotch is exceptionally sore all the time, my back aches more than ever before, and my temper has been short. I didn't "choose" 3 out of 4 of the pregnancies, but I appreciate the experience and the love that I have received from all of my kids.

[Jilian]

Siblings are really such a gift though. I remember being so worried for DS1 when I was pregnant with DS2 and it ended up being a non issue. The good far outweighs the bad. My DS1 was over 4 when DS2 came along so it may be a bit different but I like how it pushed him into being more independent. It was a good thing for him and me. I have days where I cannot imagine what he'd be like without a brother.

[Talula Fairie]

Yes. A mixture of sad and relieved, actually. Relieved becuase I will never have to deal with another hyperemesis pregnancy again (and every pregnancy it gets worse). I am bipolar as well and pregnancy is not exactly pleasant for me or others. I turn into a massive b**** and my frustration tolerance plummets.

Unfortunately, I am allergic to one of the few meds that are ok for pregnancy and the others just don't work that great. I dunno, seems like none of the meds really work for me except the meds that make you really, really fat and ravage your body in every other way. /tangent

We really couldn't afford another child in the sense that we'd ALWAYS be tight on cash if we had a fourth, fifth, or sixth child. My husband's salary, assuming he keeps his job and the furloughs end someday, tops out at around 80,000 (he won't get there for like 10+ years though). That seems like a lot until you factor in California real estate prices and just how much money 4 or more kids would cost. It's not much in the beginning but it adds up fast. My food bill alone has gone up $50 a week and our kids are only 3 and 4.

So, while I am feeling sad that this is my last pregnancy, that I'll never have a son, that I won't ever have the big family I thought I wanted...I'm also so relieved to be almost done with this. I didn't think I would feel this way in my last pregnancy...I really thought I would be savoring every moment, but I also thought the nausea and vomiting would be over by 25 weeks, tops. The rest of the discomforts I can deal with, but the constant nausea and vomiting is just horrible. Most of the time, all I can think about is how badly I want it to go away.

[aydensmama]

I am also cherishing this pregnancy...and a little bummed this will be my last time to experience it.

When I was growing up I wanted 6 kids. Reality for me, my dh, my patience level, our income level, etc has set in, and I think I would go nutso if we had 6 kids! I am in awe of the mom's with large families!!!! You rock!

I want to just chill and take it easy, which is hard to do recently. I want to remember what it feels like forever for my little one to push me from the inside.

I am also content and happy at the same time!