Intro - probably longish
Hello - I'm new to this tribe...

I'm not a huge poster (see post count and join date), but I hope to be able to post here regularly. I definitely feel out of place on MDC these days.
Short past: I have a son, 3 1/2, who I carried to term, natural birth, midwives, etc., etc... I lost my second son last April at 22w3d, due to atypical incompetent cervix (so diagnosed). He lived for a few minutes while I held him in my arms against me. I also had a partial abruption, but the consensus is that my IC caused me to go into labor and the abruption was due to that. I have no risk factors for IC.
This pregnancy: I'm 14 weeks tomorrow. I opted to have a preventative cerclage, and that was placed a week and 3 days ago. It went well; it was a huge anxiety of mine and a difficult decision, for several reasons, and I felt a large wave of relief when it was finished and all looked well.
I am now on partial bedrest (since the cerclage) - 6 hours a day laying flat on my back; 2 in morning, 2 in afternoon, 2 in evening, with no more than a 4 hour period of sitting/standing/walking in between each segment. At 20 weeks, the current plan is for me to go on full bedrest, but my OB is going to talk to my Peri if my cervical measurements are good at that time (long and no funneling).
I am lucky that my work has accommodated me working from home full time; I'm hoping to hold off on short term disability for as long as possible.
I had a baseline measurement of 3.5 cm at 8 weeks. I have my next this Friday. When I lost DS2, my cervix was 2.1cm with internal funneling right up until I started hard labor and dilated/effaced completely - quickly and mostly painlessly. I was still 2.1cm in length when I was 6cm dilated. So, cervical measurements need to stay high and no funneling for me to feel comfortable.
Right now I am learning to handle the physical and emotional adjustment of the bedrest and working from home in multiple positions (sitting, laying flat). I am currently on my couch but that is awful (headaches, body pain), so I'm going to get a twin bed or rent a hospital bed very, very soon.
I am also trying not to be anxious, I mean, what can I do - I am doing what is in my control to do... It's not like my "deadline"/when I lost DS2 is soon so I can stop worrying, it's 8 weeks away, and the danger zone is weeks beyond that. I keep wondering now and then, "what is my cervix doing today?" Is all of this going to result in a baby who lives? Can I go through losing another child? My most fearful time will be 22 - 27 weeks. I'll likely need much support during this time.
I'm going to be birthing at a hospital this time, I'm just too concerned about if there's something else wrong other than IC, and if my cerclage in some way gives problems, I'd rather be at a hospital I plan to be at (more natural birth friendly than others) than one I'd transfer to should that occur. I'll have a doula, same one who assisted me with the midwives with DS1.
I guess I'm hopeful, but this feels like a huge marathon, working, bedrest, all the appointments, and trying to keep anxiety/stress minimal. HA.
So this turned into a novel. Whoops. Well, there, howdy.

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