hi all! this is my first post here on this thread, though i've read it on and off )(mostly off) for a few months. i post on MDC pretty often, but i wanted to create a different username so i could feel less paranoid about being here.
anyway, i'm looking forward to getting to know you all. i actually know some of you already
and i'm EXTREMELY disappointed that i seem to have missed a new england meetup??? is that going to happen again? i NEED mama friends who smoke. i feel so alone sometimes. i know a lot of my friends would judge me really harshly if they knew i smoke. especially if they knew how often! but i'm still a fantastic mother, and i'm more functional on cannabis than i was on anti-depressants and painkillers.
also wanted to know if anyone else here is TTC? this is my first time TTC and i don't know anyone at all who is TTC on MJ. also i'd love to share two AWESOME cannabis-positive articles from columbia.edu: here
(it's a 2-parter). this made me feel so much better about my decision to continue cannabis and discontinue other meds, as i was feeling really rocky and guilty for it before. now i feel like the only problem with MJ is really the STIGMA constructed by our society, and not the fact that i use it.
anyway i'm off to celebrate the time with DH since DD is being babysat by the grandparents...
i'm really happy to finally have the courage to post on this thread and get to know you ladies! ETA
just read the whole thread and wanted to add a couple things:
-i have never been honest with any healthcare provider about my MJ usage, which has been on a weekly if not daily basis since 2002.
-i conceived my daughter when DH and i were both smoking TONS and TONS of herb.
-thanks to the research of melanie dreher, i felt comfortable smoking throughout my entire pregnancy with DD. she's a fantastic little girl who meets or exceeds all growth/development milestones.
-i didn't smoke for a little while after DD's birth but i did start again during her infancy. i exclusively BFed her on demand. we still BF pretty much on demand now (she's 20 months old), but not exclusively since she's been eating solids for over a year. it never impacted my milk production or anything... i've always been able to make plenty of milk, and DD has always been healthy and happy.
-i was able to stop feeling guilty about using MJ this year, FINALLY, after reading the two links above and watching more documentaries about marijuana. on netflix instant or hulu i was able to watch stuff like 'totally baked' and 'super high me' which made me realize that this is SO normal and harmless. this is all illegal simply because of william randolph hearst in the 30s, and if you look at a movie from that time like 'reefer madness' you realize that it was just total propaganda. now we have a stigma that's hard to fight. people have been smoking marijuana for eons, parents or not. no parent is perfect. we all just have to be fair to ourselves to show our children that they can grow up being happy and fair to themselves as well. we don't have to constantly feel guilty for our choices or bad about ourselves. we can only teach them self-love if we accept ourselves for who we are and what we do. now i don't feel guilty and paranoid each time i use... i feel totally okay about it.
okay, now i'm really done.