s: Ive been mia, but um just stressed to the max and I have NO MEDICINE. Im just going to cut and past my other post from UC board here. I dont know how to deal right now. I could call someone for "medicine" but Im just not comfortable using anything other than clean organic high grade esp while pregnant, for the most part Id rather go without but Im loosing my mind. Help!!!!!!!
I have this overwhelming primal urge to "build my nest" and I CAN NOT SATISFY it. Im only oh... 32, 33 w, but its consuming me. I just want to feel ready. Its suddenly apparent, that Im going to have a baby, theres not a lot of time left, and I dont have a nest!!
We're in the middle, well, hopefully end
of buying a house, we are supposed to close fri, but our closing date has been moved before. The house needs a certain amount of work, before we can move in. Let me rephrase that. It needs a certain amount of work to make it liveable, and then more work to get it how we want it to move in. DP is determined not to take any time off work , (provider instinct I guess) and work on it from the time he gets back in town from working all day, (Home construction/remodeling) till dark or he cant continue, and then work all weekend sun up till sundown. He thinks it will be ready and we can move in and all will be wonderfull and we can have another baby.
Im so worried and stressed to the max. Ive joked about keeping my birth kit in the car incase I dont know where Ill be when labor hits, or wehre we'll be living at that moment. BUt I REALLY DONT want it to come down to that.
Idealy I'd like to be in and Settled have some what of a routine in the new place before we introduce a new baby to the family dynamic, I think it would be healthier for the kids and I, as well as DP who thrives on routine being on the spectrum and all. Im so worried its all going to happen in a whirlwind. Or what if I just cant let go mentally and come 44 weeks am still pregnant b/c I dont feel confortable with my "nest"???? Fears fears and more fears.
Its apparent that we are going to have to make a giant to do list and but "move into new house" some where on it, then whittle away and figure out how to move that up. So that only the essentials get done, and what can wait can wait, but thats WAYYYY easier said than done.
Im so stressed to the max, I should be admiring my DPs determination to get this all done and instead I freaked out on him today and said a lot of things I didnt mean, because all I can feel is my own fear. I feel insecure in not having a nest or being able to work on my nest, instead of feeling secure in his determination, which greatly insults him. Wow, this could almost go into Parents as Partners. lol.
suggestions welcome. :sob: