Okay, so I know I said I was going to take a break until I got my next beta back, but my mind won't take a break and this is the most appropriate place for an "I'm pregnant with my 4th baby and losing my mind" post.
I feel totally, crazy overwhelmed by the idea of a 4th child today. I don't know what we're going to do about our house, our car, school, money, my birth, or ANYTHING. We have a four bedroom house and a car that seats seven so in theory this shouldn't be a problem, but in reality, my oldest two boys are totally like oil and water and I CANNOT imagine them sharing a room again (they've had their own rooms since we moved here about three years ago). If the new baby is a boy, it can share with our littlest one with no problem, but can I just say that I really, really, really, really hope this baby is a GIRL?! And if this baby is a girl, I think we can swing about 6 months after the birth in this house (with baby girl in a crib in our room) before we'll have to either put two boys in a room together or move to a house that has space for everyone to have their own room.
And as for the car, I have a Ford Freestyle, which has two in the back row, three in the middle, and then the driver and passenger. My littlest will only be 18 months when this maybe baby is born, which will mean that they will both have to rear face, which will mean that my oil and water children will have to ride next to each other in the back, which terrifies me because I have seriously almost killed us all trying to discipline them for their car antics and thus they are no longer allowed to sit together. Plus they'll have to climb over two rear-facing carseats to even get to the back, which is less than ideal. I can't think of any vehicle that would make this arrangement less awkward, though, so I guess it's just a "deal with it" situation.
And the school situation....sigh. I homeschool, very reluctantly. We live in one of the worst states in the nation for schools and happen to have gifted children and not enough money to throw away on private schools, so homeschooling is all that has made sense. As the boys grow and get along less and less, though, it gets harder and harder to even think about having them at home all the time. I seriously want to ship them off to boarding school some days
:. We live very close to the Texas border and one of the best (small...very, very small) school districts in Texas, so we're very seriously talking about when we move, moving into that district and sending them to school there. I think that's probably the best option, but it still doesn't help me feel any less overwhelmed because it involves moving, which will realistically not be an option until about a year from now, at best.
Sigh.
I'm just feeling really, really overwhelmed and like there's no solution and I'm in over my head. I've never had an unplanned pregnancy before...ever...even all of the pregnancies I've miscarried have been planned and very much wanted and now I'm totally lost. This is a wanted pregnancy, don't get me wrong, and I'll be very upset if I miscarry, especially because with all of these issues to resolve, TRYING to get pregnant doesn't make any sense. But wow...I'm not sure how I'll ever get to where I can wrap my head around being ready for a 4th child to join us in 8 short months!!
I feel totally, crazy overwhelmed by the idea of a 4th child today. I don't know what we're going to do about our house, our car, school, money, my birth, or ANYTHING. We have a four bedroom house and a car that seats seven so in theory this shouldn't be a problem, but in reality, my oldest two boys are totally like oil and water and I CANNOT imagine them sharing a room again (they've had their own rooms since we moved here about three years ago). If the new baby is a boy, it can share with our littlest one with no problem, but can I just say that I really, really, really, really hope this baby is a GIRL?! And if this baby is a girl, I think we can swing about 6 months after the birth in this house (with baby girl in a crib in our room) before we'll have to either put two boys in a room together or move to a house that has space for everyone to have their own room.
And as for the car, I have a Ford Freestyle, which has two in the back row, three in the middle, and then the driver and passenger. My littlest will only be 18 months when this maybe baby is born, which will mean that they will both have to rear face, which will mean that my oil and water children will have to ride next to each other in the back, which terrifies me because I have seriously almost killed us all trying to discipline them for their car antics and thus they are no longer allowed to sit together. Plus they'll have to climb over two rear-facing carseats to even get to the back, which is less than ideal. I can't think of any vehicle that would make this arrangement less awkward, though, so I guess it's just a "deal with it" situation.
And the school situation....sigh. I homeschool, very reluctantly. We live in one of the worst states in the nation for schools and happen to have gifted children and not enough money to throw away on private schools, so homeschooling is all that has made sense. As the boys grow and get along less and less, though, it gets harder and harder to even think about having them at home all the time. I seriously want to ship them off to boarding school some days
:. We live very close to the Texas border and one of the best (small...very, very small) school districts in Texas, so we're very seriously talking about when we move, moving into that district and sending them to school there. I think that's probably the best option, but it still doesn't help me feel any less overwhelmed because it involves moving, which will realistically not be an option until about a year from now, at best.Sigh.
I'm just feeling really, really overwhelmed and like there's no solution and I'm in over my head. I've never had an unplanned pregnancy before...ever...even all of the pregnancies I've miscarried have been planned and very much wanted and now I'm totally lost. This is a wanted pregnancy, don't get me wrong, and I'll be very upset if I miscarry, especially because with all of these issues to resolve, TRYING to get pregnant doesn't make any sense. But wow...I'm not sure how I'll ever get to where I can wrap my head around being ready for a 4th child to join us in 8 short months!!
. You do have a lot to think about, and Suzy gave some great suggestions.
mama, I'm so sorry it's so overwhelming, be gentle with yourself. lots of 
Charmie I hear you. I lay in bed last night tossing and turning thinking of many of those types of things. My 4th as well, and where will we fit him/her, and we'll need a new car, etc. I'm sorry you're so stressed, I hope it passes soon so you can enjoy this time more. As a pp said, 8 months is a pretty long time, it will work out somehow.
