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post #41 of 109
How bad it this..I am a doula/midwife and I am terrified to birth this baby. I have always been one of those weird people who when I'm with a laboring mom I am envious of the journey they are going through. Now that I am pregnant again I am not excited. It is just wrong. I also rarely take my prenatals (they make me itch).
I am also afraid of having this baby because then it will have to be named and it is dh turn and I am scared of what he is going to name this baby.
Sex hurts...really bad. And to tell the truth I am enjoying the break. My dh has a huge sex drive(mine is more normal) he wants it 2 times a day and every 1-2 days is typical for us. now I'm making him make due with once a week. You would think he is dying!
post #42 of 109
i miss my daily afternoon double-espresso runs (or the quick Amp gulp-down) so listing those caffeine levels was not a good idea

i have a glass of red wine once or twice a month (at least i cut out the beer, tho i have no taste for it since getting preggers)

i still carry lots of heavy things (tables, chairs, etc) - everyone at work has a fit whenever they see me picking up crates of food or whatnot - but i figure it's keeping my muscles in shape and balancing out all the food i eat

we have nothing for the baby in the house yet. but i have jewish in-laws, so i don't want them to freak out. the few one-of-a-kind things i've bought i'm keeping at a friend's house till closer to the birth.

i really hate that i've got the pregnancy brain - with two jobs and several novels/short stories i'm trying to work on, as well as the sewing projects i'd like to get done for the bebe and a friend of mine who's expecting any day now - i get so tired just thinking about everything i need to get done that nothing ends up getting done. my creative energies are totally gone and that makes me sad/pissed off. everyone says it'll come back after the pregnancy, but then i'll be so sleep-deprived that i won't be able to think at all.

i worry about being able to breastfeed. not the physical part (tho with my nipples and areolas hurting so much still, that could be a concern)...but the mental part. these have been a big part of my sexuality for 20 years and now i have to change over to nursing and feeding. but i definitely don't want to use formula.
post #43 of 109
I just made 2 pans of brownies for dd's VBS and I licked the bowl after each batch
post #44 of 109
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Originally Posted by Therese's Mommy View Post
I just made 2 pans of brownies for dd's VBS and I licked the bowl after each batch
Oh, I want brownies. BAD.

((Goes off to kitchen in search of brownie mix.))
post #45 of 109
This baby was a surprise, so no folic acid preconception and barely a vitamin since. With my first two (who were planned) I religiously took my vitamins even when I was throwing up, with this one I couldn't face it. I was also very far from enthusiastic when I discovered I was pregnant - mainly since I couldn't face the 3-4 months of constant nausea and barfing - now that has passed I'm much happier. Feel like I'm a very bad mama to my boys, they're watching ridiculous amounts of tv as there are days when frankly I just can't be bothered with them and it's the easiest way to cope - their brains are turning to mush and I promise to feel bad about it later but at the moment I'm too tired.
post #46 of 109
I am eating way too many carbs and not enough protien.

Most veggies make me gag now. I can handle carrots and radishes.

I have a big bowl of sugary cereal before bed.

I have fast food at least once a week.

And baby LOVES hot dogs

I drink iced tea rather then water.

Have not done one kegel...uh oh
post #47 of 109
I only do Kegels when I see them mentioned on MDC (like...during this entire thread..so thanks!!)

Vitamins are once every few days when I remember and can stomach it.

I get my decaf coffee from Starbucks because I saw a news report that proved decaf from Starbucks (at least in my area) has the same amount of caffeine as regular coffee from Dunkin' Donuts

I did a shot of tequila last week when my grandmother died. Then I did another. I was hoping it would calm the baby down because the stress had both of us in a friggin' tizzy. Plus it was totally skeeving me out that my grams was dead and I had this constant, moving reminder of a new life inside of me.
post #48 of 109
I suppose I should add that I also lift heavy things, clean the litter box, and ride on the back of my DH's motorcycle.

My dad chided me for going down a slide! He was like, "I saw you go down that slide." I didn't know that was a no-no! It's funny that he doesn't say anything about me riding on the back of a motorcycle, but he doesn't think I should go down a slide.
post #49 of 109
Thread Starter 
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Originally Posted by brenna80 View Post
I suppose I should add that I also lift heavy things, clean the litter box, and ride on the back of my DH's motorcycle.

My dad chided me for going down a slide! He was like, "I saw you go down that slide." I didn't know that was a no-no! It's funny that he doesn't say anything about me riding on the back of a motorcycle, but he doesn't think I should go down a slide.
Ohhhh I have SO been wanting to hit up a water slide. THose are the only thing at amusement parks that I like because I get motion sick on anything else. I have missed them this summer. I figured the looks people would give me would probably not be worth it, and I wasnt even sure if water parks let pregnant women on water slides??
post #50 of 109
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Ohhhh I have SO been wanting to hit up a water slide. THose are the only thing at amusement parks that I like because I get motion sick on anything else. I have missed them this summer. I figured the looks people would give me would probably not be worth it, and I wasnt even sure if water parks let pregnant women on water slides??
I'd go on them, just not the super crazy ones. We've been talking about taking DD to the waterslides, but the last week has been really stormy and not so hot.
post #51 of 109
I'm eating healthy - despite the every now and again craving for Burger King. Sometimes I can smell BK blocks down the road and have to turn around. And not doing my kegels enough.

But sadly, my current confession is that I'm a little irrationally annoyed with DSS and his weekend presence in my "baby room". My maternal instinct (this is my first) is to make a home for my lil man. I'm buying, I'm receiving, there's stuff overflowing in the garage. But the room is really DSS's room for now - and realistically for many months since lil man will be with us. Still, it's going against my instinct to NOT create a home for lil man. I'm sorry DSS, it's really not personal. I love you too.
post #52 of 109
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Originally Posted by Therese's Mommy View Post
I just made 2 pans of brownies for dd's VBS and I licked the bowl after each batch
Not apart of this DDC but I was reading this thread anyway /late.

I have been wanting brownies every night. Poor DH has to bring them home or I'm not a very content/happy pg woman.

He brought tootsie rolls to substitute brownies one night, oh man, I was not happy!
post #53 of 109
Thread Starter 
Thanks to all you ladies on here I can confess that i had a Raspberry Chocolate truffle latte yesterday and it was amazing and I didnt feel guilty... Lol :
post #54 of 109
i have been craving sweets.
(i normally do NOT like them at all!)
so i made...within 2 days...
ice cream cone cupcakes and peanutbutter chocolate fudge brownies.
they lasted a day.
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post #55 of 109
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Originally Posted by mrscompgeek View Post
Thanks to all you ladies on here I can confess that i had a Raspberry Chocolate truffle latte yesterday and it was amazing and I didnt feel guilty... Lol :
I had cheesecake for breakfast this morning. And I'm seriously considering having another piece right now...
post #56 of 109
I am driving myself crazy, and I have been awful to my family lately. We live in a 115 year old house, and are always doing work on it. We are currently painting the kitchen cupboards, finishing drywall in the entryway from a closet we tore out and replacing the floor in there (it's subfloor right now, and has been for months). Plus we had to switch the girls' bedrooms so DD2 could have the bigger room to share with the baby. Our bedroom furniture needs to be rearranged to accommodate the co-sleeper, the main drainage pipe for our house had tree roots in it and everything backed up into the lower level of our basement. Our basement is unfinished, but used for storage. DH has been going through everything and throwing out the damaged items (not all of the baby things, thankfully, but it is also bothering me that they are all still down there, unsorted and unwashed) and sorting through what is left (it really needed to be done anyway, but maybe not right now). We are also planning on tearing the carpet out of our bedroom and painting the wood floor underneath (although I'd prefer to refinish, but I know we won't get that done). We are supposed to be getting estimates for having the exterior painted and the roof replaced. Both really need to be done, and MIL is paying for them but I can't even think about doing it right now and I feel bad because I keep thinking she must think we are ungrateful and don't even care that she offered to do this for us.

I know, on some level, that all of this stuff does not need to be done before the baby comes. I know that we won't do any of it for a while after the baby is born, but eventually we will get to it (and we are normally slow, some of these projects have already been going on too long). I am freaking out about it every day though. I am having panic attacks and trying to focus on these projects and then the regular stuff like laundry is not getting done. I yell at my DDs when they won't help, and I unintentionally make DH feel guilty about not doing enough (DH, who works full-time, does freelance and is already far more helpful around the house/with the kids than any of the other dads we know).

Plus, I sew, but I don't have any time right now so I haven't even started my nephew's gift (and his birthday was in May), just started the one for my neice (next week) and have hardly made anything for the baby (just a small quilt and a burp cloth). I haven't even mailed my sister's children's gifts yet and I am not even sewing those! They are sitting on the kitchen table in a box, ready to go.

I know I need to calm down, but I just can't relax. There is literally something going on in every room of our house (and outside) and I am faced with unfinished projects everywhere I go. Unless I leave the house, but I feel bad about that too, because then all I can think about is how I should be at home doing something.
post #57 of 109
Thread Starter 
My confession today would have to be that I cant motivate myself to move!! Uh, I couldnt sleep last night until about 5 this morning then slept in til 10 and now im just struggling with making myself do anything. It probably has something to do with the bladder infection Im fighting right now and the meds but geez, I feel sooo lazy!
post #58 of 109
i can't remember one single thing ... my memory has gone right up the tubes. i tell dh that it's a pregnant lady thing and may return sometime when baby is in toddler years (you can't seriously expect it to return during the baby days) but i'm so incredibly forgetful and absent minded it's embarrassing. dh has started calling me in the middle of the day to remind me of things. i am supposed to be able to manage two kids, the household, pregnancy, and work from home - i used to be able to. i forget how to do it now.

i crave coke. the real coke with all the sugar in it. i drink maybe one a week because the caffeine makes me talk non-stop for an hour straight and i even drive myself crazy. (i am sensitive to caffeine since going off it when pregnant with my first child.)

i really don't like being pregnant. i am not beautiful, glowing, etc. just tell me the truth that i'm puffy, swollen, crabby, etc.

i really, really have a short temper when i'm pregnant. you tell me the wrong thing and i seriously can bite your head right off. then wonder what's wrong with you for being offended with what i just said.
post #59 of 109
Oh, I love this thread! I don't think I could say all of this to anyone without getting dirty looks and shaking fingers. You won't give me dirty looks or shaking fingers, will you? :

My confessions:

I forget to eat breakfast a lot of the time

I forget to eat lunch when my best friend/co-worker is out of the office

I eat an insane amount of candy and chocolate - I know it's not good for me or baby, but I can't seem to help myself - I'm talking like an average of 10-15 of those minisize candy bars. A couple co-workers across the hall have baskets of candy...I'll be able to fix that problem now that today is my last day at work.

I haven't been getting enough sleep because I've been staying up until 1:30 am or later and getting up at 7:00. Probably because of all of the caffeine in the chocolate I've been eating...even a little caffeine will keep me awake all night. However, even the few days when I didn't have any chocolate, I still couldn't get to sleep to 1:00 or so...my mind was racing with all of the things we have to do: pack, move, tie up things at work, etc.

I haven't been able to be motivated at work and have been on the internet too much, so now I am working today on the weekend - but I'm still on the internet...this is my break...

I'm moving next Thursday, so hopefully I will be able to cure myself of most of my vices after that...
post #60 of 109
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Originally Posted by Degas View Post
Oh, I love this thread! I don't think I could say all of this to anyone without getting dirty looks and shaking fingers. You won't give me dirty looks or shaking fingers, will you? :
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No worries Degas -- You read all the stuff above right? No innocents here!!

(Let the pregnant lady who is entirely without vice cast the first stone!)
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