I'm so selfish - Page 2

[georgia]

Oh, that's wonderful news! I'm so glad you liked her---that can make such a big difference Crying is good--and totally par for the course. I'm so glad you updated. I know how hard it is right now

[ShineliketheSon]

Originally Posted by racie0417

Shine, I have been suffering right along with you. I have trouble with changes too, and am also sad about the DDC ending. I am glad there is a FB group to still connect through.

I know you recently lost your playgroup. Have you tried www.meetup.com ? That was how I found my playgroup, although they eventually moved to www.raisingthem.com so you might want to look there too. Have you tried a LLL meeting?

My DH is military and we move all the time, plus my military friends move alot so I find myself needing to make friends almost constantly. I am shy so it is hard. I do rely on the internet to filll the gap or get me through days I cannot get house of the house (almost everyday anymore).

Even though, I don't always post know that I am reading your journey, and feeling for you.

You gave me tears! I so appreciate your comments and your support! I follow you too (did you see I copied your babybunching article on FB?) I did try an API group and I felt so out of place. I am in a homeschooling group but it just hasn't gotten off the ground yet and probably not till august, plus I get anxiety hearing all the stuff these moms are doing with their under 4 year olds and feel guilty. I havn't tried LLL yet, might do that. I did just join a PPD support group, so will also see what comes of that. My parents moved ALOT so I had to learn to adapt and therefor am actually pretty outgoing, but lately it just seems like too much energy kwim? Though I know it's what I need!

THANKS Georgia! I sooo appreciate the concern and support!!!

[Lindsay1234]

Shine - Just giving you hugs!!!!

I think that all the drama in our DDC HAS made us "closer" than a normal ddc might have been. I wish I could be with you right now to read over all your previous posts with you and SHOW you that you are not only a great mama but a great cyber friend! I really soak in all your kind and encouraging words, I hope you can soak mine in too!!

You are amazing. Youre not afraid to ask for help or to switch your plan, for the emotional health of your family. Selfish-smelfish!

[Autumn Breeze]

My ddc had a premature birth, and a stillbirth, right around the mama's edd. A lot of us are still together in a "DDC" that has evolved with our 3.5 yr olds.

[SunShineSally]

mama I am sorry I never had PPD I have prenatal depression. I watched and helped my sister through her PPD I know how lonely she felt you are NOT alone! I do not know you but if you need to you can PM me and vent and what not

[FischK]

Shine - glad first appt went well. I'm so glad you had the courage to do this. I'm following you, too, even though I do not always reply or comment. Take care!

[ShineliketheSon]

Originally Posted by Lindsay1234

Shine - Just giving you hugs!!!!

I think that all the drama in our DDC HAS made us "closer" than a normal ddc might have been. I wish I could be with you right now to read over all your previous posts with you and SHOW you that you are not only a great mama but a great cyber friend! I really soak in all your kind and encouraging words, I hope you can soak mine in too!!

You are amazing. Youre not afraid to ask for help or to switch your plan, for the emotional health of your family. Selfish-smelfish!

Lindsay! Yet another set of tears fell! I couldn't even respond to this the day I read it. THank you so much for your kindness! Even through all you've gone through and are still you take the time to care about me. I'm so glad some of my words have helped you, I will soak up yours! Yes our DDC has been more connected, though I do wish it wasn't due to the tragic circumstances... I think we will be chatting about our babies for years to come and hopefully some of us meeting someday! And I look forward to following and praying for MI_Dawn and Mischevium's healing and future pregnancies. And can't wait to follow how Sophia will thrive being home with her family!!!!

Originally Posted by Autumn Breeze

My ddc had a premature birth, and a stillbirth, right around the mama's edd. A lot of us are still together in a "DDC" that has evolved with our 3.5 yr olds.

Thank you for saying this. The thought of loosing these women really tears me up. I hope we can stay connected for a long time.

Originally Posted by SunShineSally

mama I am sorry I never had PPD I have prenatal depression. I watched and helped my sister through her PPD I know how lonely she felt you are NOT alone! I do not know you but if you need to you can PM me and vent and what not

Thank you so much! My sister hit bottom 8 hospitalizations, many suicide attempts, one we almost lost her...so I know how scary it can be and I'm so glad I'm not even close to that. THanks for the PM offer...I may take you up on it someday.

Originally Posted by FischK

Shine - glad first appt went well. I'm so glad you had the courage to do this. I'm following you, too, even though I do not always reply or comment. Take care!

Thank you. Just to know people I care about care about me is enough some days! Thinkin of you!

Remembered today that the therapist did key in on my anxiety issues and I appear to have more of that than the depression...so will be working on it!

[ShineliketheSon]

Me tonight =

My DDC is ending...and I'm grieving...see my blog post.

[FischK]

Read your blog. Wow. It help me understand what you're going through, but also how the transition from pg to mother affects us. Thanks, Shine!

Our DDC may be closing, but that does not mean community will end. We just have to believe that we can sustain it.

[ShineliketheSon]

Therapy is helping sooo much! I need to write in my blog bout it!

Our DDC is closing, I'd been having a hard time letting it go but thought today I actually like being in LWAB. When our chat is slow I see other conversations to chat about...Change can be good...

Ran into a really crummy website the other day that gave me HIGH anxiety, felt like my security bubble was popped. came to relization that though the posters meant to hurt me God used it for good and it helped me move past some displaced emotions!

Can you tell I've done some healing?! Praise God!

And MDC friends are such a big part of my healing too. my therapist keeps reminding me of how good it is I have a network of friends to talk and share life with right now, a safe place...even if not IRL...this is obviously what I need right now. And had it not been for another posters blog I wouldn't have blogged my feelings which has helped soooo much!!! Thanks mamas!

I've also been trying really hard to cuddle and love on DD1 everyday. She needs that affection and I need to show it to her for me too, even if I don't feel like it,I always feel better after.

eta: thanks fischk that was one of the most powerful and honest ones I've written and the most healing..I'm starting to let that pregnant woman go as well as the mom of 1, but the secure niave women, i still want her back...
At least I'm acepting the DDC change!

[Autumn Breeze]

[herins]

[goodmomma76]

shine--didn't want to read and not post... s

I am being treated for PPD too, and can't say much more than you have been a good friend in our DDC. Very positive and inspring, so hold on to that.

[ShineliketheSon]

Originally Posted by goodmomma76

shine--didn't want to read and not post... s

I am being treated for PPD too, and can't say much more than you have been a good friend in our DDC. Very positive and inspring, so hold on to that.

THANK YOU: