i heard a rumor that i was agnostic.
i know there's *something* but i don't know what, exactly, and i can't believe anyone who claims to know what, exactly, god (or whatever you want to call it) is. i suppose i "became" agnostic over a long period of time, when i gradually realized that i didn't agree with the specific religion i was raised in, and then realized i didn't really believe in the narrowness of christianity at all, because i think god/goodness reveals itself to all people and can't believe that only a few (relative to all the people who have ever lived) people are "right" in their idea of what the "higher power" is.
i'm not an atheist, because i experience a spiritual world all around me. i happen to use the word 'god' because i'm comfortable with that word, but i suppose i don't think of that concept the way i used to. otoh, i think it's okay to connect with god/goodness however people go about it, if it's working for them, so i don't take issue with christianity. i just wouldn't choose it for my kids/family because i personally found it limiting.
i would love for our family to be jewish because i love the deep studying (including questioning and debating), the family-centeredness and the traditions and sense of identity/history, as well as several specific beliefs, but the fact is, we're not jewish, so i'm not sure where that leaves us. we do have a uu congregation here, and i've called about r.e. and i've google mapped it and i've driven past it, but it doesn't appeal to me like judaism, so we just drift along for now.