Canboo, Im sorry about your cat. We had to give ours away, he didnt like the idea of a new baby in our hoem.
Sophia is a skinny baby too. She just seems to grow in lenght, so Im having some issues dressing her. Well her 0-3 months dresses fit her like shirts and I put them on with leggings, she looks cute like that.
Sophia is teething too! She has been drooling so much for the past hmm 1-2 weeks, gumming her wrists and my shoulders. At first I thought "oh, she's hungry", but she got mad everytime I tried to feed her. A couple of days ago I decided to rub a finger against her gums and I felt a tiny tiny bump and I think I saw a little something. Most of the time she doesnt seem very uncomfortable, but there was one night, she cried sooooo much. I felt sad for her, she doesnt really like teethers, so I dont know what to do. She wakes up a lot because of it. DP keeps mentioning orajel, but I dont know, anyone knows of a more natural version of this?
I've also been having some issues getting with dss. I've gotten so mad at him a couple of times and it makes me feel bad. I've apologized to him afterwards and I've just yelled at him, but still feeling rage at a child makes me feel guilty. It's just so hard sometimes, specially when you are lacking sleep and time for yourself. The other day I was trying to get him to clean up his room with me. He kept saying "no, you do it" and I was telling him that I would help him and he gave me this look and said "shhh, be quiet" and then acted like he was gonna spit on me, something he has been doing lately, not only to me and we've told him many times that people dont spit on each other and it's not nice and why would he do that.
And yesterday was even worse, Sophia was crying like crazy and I had her in my arms. Dss went to pee and wanted me to put his underwear back on, something he knows how to do and I was telling him that I couldnt do it, but that he didnt need me to, because he knows how to do it. I was bouncing Sophia and he kinda pulled my arm and Sophia hit her head against the door. I felt so sad for her, she cried like never before and I got so mad at dss, I had to come upstairs and stay in the room for Sophia for a moment until I calmed down.
She's fine, doesnt have a bump or anything, but still. Im kinda glad to know Im not the only one dealing with these feelings, not glad is happening, it's just that whenever I get mad at him or lose my temper at yell him. I feel like Im being an evil stepmom, my dp always tells me that's silly and that Im very good to him and he loves me, but it's just hard sometimes.