Super mega hugs to you Alicia. Its good to process how your birth turned out, and its hard not to do the "what if" thing. With my first I did what you thought you should have done. I transfered and got the epi after 30hours of labor. I also got pit and thats when things went downhill.
With this birth I did the best possible thing and went for the homebirth only to have to transfer again. I'm more at peace this time knowing that my transfer was necessary and my c/s was necessary. Even though it doesn't make it any easier that I missed out on a VBAC. But you still have that hope to hang on to. Researching and planning my VBAC healed my first birth. I'm still tring to figure out what will heal me from this one.
I have been having period cramping too!! I too a pregnancy test last week and it was negative, thankfully. DH and I dtd the other night and I had some bleeding so I thought I had my cycle back but nothing came of it the nect day.
Anyone losing their hair yet? Mine is coming out in big handfulls. (well I mean like 10 or so strands at a time as opposed to a random strand here and there.) I am so psyched because my hair is uncomfortably thick! I am resisting the urge to chop it like I did post ds1. I want to grow it looong again.
So excited for you Katie, that your hubby will be visiting soon!!
to Quate and AustGirl on the bf'ing issues.
sorry about your foster mom Jacqueline