I'm finally admitting something is wrong.

[felix23]

After almost 8 months of trying to pretend everything is okay, I finally fell apart this morning and called for help. I cry almost everyday, never want to do anything, and I've done stupid things like not paying our bills. I have an appointment for tomorrow, so maybe I'll get some help. I'm just want to be normal again. I feel embarressed that my life doesn't really have any big problems, but I still can't be happy.

[Meadowlark1978]

[notjustmamie]

Good for you to be willing to admit that everything is NOT okay! I hope that your appointment tomorrow is helpful and you will be able to get the assistance you need.

[Spirit Dancer]

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[JennTheMomma]

First step in getting better is admitting something is wrong. It'll be ok.

[Autumn Breeze]

It's ok! There was nothing major in my life that was "reason" to be sad. You don't need to have a reason, it's the chemical make up of your brain that is lacking. It's not something you can control. Good for you for reaching out and getting help!

[felix23]

I don't know why I am so scared of going to the dr. I am on the verge of picking up the phone and cancelling. I just want to go back to bed and hope when I wake up everything is going to be normal.

[nichole]

I think that is a common feeling to want to cancel the appointment. I would say go, and just give it a try. You will feel better getting everything off your chest.

[BlueWolf]

Originally Posted by felix23

I don't know why I am so scared of going to the dr. I am on the verge of picking up the phone and cancelling. I just want to go back to bed and hope when I wake up everything is going to be normal.

Huge hugs going your way. How have you survived this long? My baby is only 2 weeks old and I knew a couple days ago that my feelings/emotions was not normal baby blues. I made DH make me a doctors appointment immediately. We went in, I bawled in the doctors office, and they set up a treatment plan for me. They put me on a low dosage of Zoloft (which should kick in 4-6 weeks) and they highly recommended finding a support group or some counseling sessions so I could talk out my anxieties and stress.

Just making that step to get help make me feel better and more in control.

I asked the doctor today if there was a instance happy shot.. and he said no, but there was a sedative that can help but he didn't recommend it with breast feeding since to transfers through milk. So, if you're not still breast feeding.. maybe that's an option for you?

[ailesimp]

you are not alone

well admitting that something is wrong is the first step towards getting better. feeling like that is not unusual. just reach out your hand and I am sure your family or friends will help you - that's what we here for. don't feel embarrassed. my neighbour denied her postnatal depression for so long until she ruined her marriage and her husband left her. then she finally gave in, got help and saved her marriage. don't worry there is help.

[asoulunbound]

Good for you.
Just give it your best. We're rooting for ya!

[MCatLvrMom2A&X]

It is so hard to talk to a Dr. about it. For me my fear was he would just blow me off and tell me that it was all in my head.