Weekly thread, July 22-25

[jenfl]

I know it's the middle of the week, but let's get one of these started anyway.

How's everybody holding up?

I'm having a particularly rough day. Had a lot of energy yesterday and the day before, but I probably over-did it with a lot of walking around last night (date night with DH!). I've been wiped out today, with a burst of nausea mid-day. On top of that, DD has been grumpy and mommy-clingy. Poor DH has been trying to take her more so I can lay down, but she just really really wants to be around me.

Hit a few thrift stores today, figuring it's best to start early because the maternity clothing selection gets picked over really quickly. I got a few shirts and some long pants, but no luck on my major need -- shorts! That's a year-round wardrobe need here in FL.

Couldn't help buying a really cute newborn sized outfit while I was there....

[Luv2bemommy]

I had a rough day too.. I'm sad no one is happy about this pregnancy but us. I finally told my mother tonight after having known for 4 days now. She was happy of course. I was nervous what my step dad, brother and SIL would say. They were like whatever. I think they expect it by now. LOL

We aren't telling inlaws anytime soon. Just too much negativity. There are some local message boards I need to tell soon. I hate the negativity from them too. Like it's anyones business!!

Other then that, I was a lil nauseated today. I can tell I'm pregnant because I get hungry but don't want to eat. I'm always like that. I'll start losing weight now because of it.

[jenfl]

That's too bad that you're going to face so much negativity, Luv2bemommy! Like it's anyone's business but your own how you choose to build your family!

Well, we'll all be happy for you. : :

[Riverbeauty]

I have had a headache that just wont quit for the past 3 days... ugh!

Besides that, the good news is that I am done with all the errands that accompany being pregnant while on Social Security and Welfare... and I have doc appointments all lined up. I get an ultrasound on the 7th of Aug. and that will determine WHO is my attending care provider for my pregnancy. Fun! I hate waiting and having my future up in the air. I just want it all to be settled so I can quit worrying about it.

Diabetes is no fun when you are pregnant!

[ryleeee]

well i dunno. i am SO EMOTIONAL. like seriously, so many things are making me cry. haye and i were watching SYTYCD with my mom and talking to him about going into hip-hop dance (something we've been planning that he seems to be passionate about) and he was like "well i don't think i can do that!" (regarding a crazy move they were doing) and i was like "haye those people practiced dancing their whole lives to get that good...if you practice that hard you can definitely do that when you are older" ...and then i had to look away because i was crying.


food...blech. either not hungry or craving mcdonald's cheeseburgers. last time around it was chicken burgers..hehe...

and i am so irrational and freaking hormonal.
and i have had a headache for over a WEEK NOW. ugh!
i think it's in part to do with all the smoke, we live in kelowna where the huge fires are, you might have heard about them...

anyways, i guess that's it. oh and it's FORTY FREAKING DEGREES HERE (over 100 F) so i am hot and moody and UGH.

but other than that i am fine

and super happy to be pregnant
even though i keep freaking myself out and worrying that my blood test results will come back neg...

i must have checked my FRER test like 450 times today.
oh yeah, after getting 2 faint FRER BFP's i went to the doc for a pee test (i don't know if i told you guys this ?) and he was all "well i GUESS i can convince myself there is a line...go for blood work" where they treated me like...i dunno. another 14 year old scumbag that doesn't know how to use a condom (not like i think 14 year old pregnant girls are scumbags ) ...i just about bawled the whole way home.
ughhhhhhh!

[jenfl]

Oh, ryleeee! I'm sorry the doc and techs treated you so badly! They can't seem to tell the difference between women who want a blood test because they don't want to be pregnant, and those of us who desperately do want to be pregnant.

When will you get the results? Are you having it re-drawn to check for doubling, or are you just getting the one value?

[HisBeautifulWife]

I am tired. Like seriously tired.

[ryleeee]

i just wanted some confirmation. the doc said to call back around noon, and the tech told me it would take 2 days and was annoyed that i asked. i'll call the doc at noon.

[rollergirl]

boo ugh with those people! i hope you get some good numbers at noon!!!!

[rollergirl]

and that is why i hate the first trimester

on monday afternoon we walked to the library. it's about a 5 minute walk from our place. i carried DS on my back and a full bag of library books there and back. when we got home, around 4:30 or so, i was SO BEAT. i just sat on the couch for 20 minutes. and ended up not making any dinner that night (we had leftovers).

tues & weds, i felt pretty tired again around 3:30-5 or so, but not as bad as monday.

and then there's today. took DS for a 25 min run in the jogging stroller this morning, then went for a long walk, a playground, and then a shorter long walk home carrying DS on my back, a bag, and a 7 lb bike.

but am i tired this afternoon? BARELY.

and of course all i can think of is when i had the miscarriage and how i was EXHAUSTED right away for about two weeks or so and then suddenly i felt a lot better and then i had the m/c.

UGH! it's only been one day, and it's hardly even 5 wks yet, so really, it's surprising that i am feeling anything at all (with DS, it wasn't until after 6 wks that i had any symptoms at all). but the m/c happened at 5.5 wks and was expelled at 6.6 wks. so.

am trying not to freak out, but of course i am driving myself crazy. already.

update: just brushed and flossed. gums did not bleed like they did two days ago. very scientific i know.

[jenfl]

rollergirl -- I've had a lot of energy today, too, which also has me worried. It's hard not to worry about every little thing, even though I've never had a m/c! Even though I plan to have midwife care, I've thought of going to an OB just to try to get an early ultrasound. It's hard when you hear stories of the moms whose babies didn't grow but they didn't miscarry on their own, either.

But I'm trying to let it go. Trying to just take it day by day.

Sometimes it works. Usually it doesn't.

[jenfl]

I've never been so happy to be tired at 8pm before!

[Realrellim]

I'm trying not to overanalyze here, though I was pretty excited to realize this one is due at Easter. DD was due just before Christmas, so I'm hoping two due dates near major Christian holidays is a good sign for this one.

The fatigue is astounding. I actually ran 8 miles on Sunday, and that made me think I was pregnant because it was by far the worst run I've had in years, complete with me fighting back nausea and going 1-2 minutes slower than my usual pace. I haven't run since because I've felt so awful. Today I had one of the points where I felt almost normal so I figured I'd take a walk. I walked maybe .6 of a mile before I was beat and turned around to go home. (I'd walked a little more on the tm, before becoming completely depressed to see my usual comfortable walking speed cut nearly in half!) Total miles walked slowly: 1.3. With DD I was able to get in two runs after I knew I was pregnant but before I felt too exhausted. I don't see that happening this time, or at least not until 2nd tri.

[jenfl]

Well, according to previous months' charting, today I am officially "late"! :

It's so odd that I've known for over a week at this point, and I've just now reached this milestone.

[Realrellim]

My first pregnancy was like that. I was charting, but my cycle was so messed up at that point that I hadn't ovulated in months and had no luteal phease to measure. (Obviously, then I did ovulate and she "took.")

This time I knew my luteal phase was only 10 days, so it was a short wait from the time that symptoms showed up on Sunday to testing on Wednesday. Still, it's good to be an even 4 weeks along.

[jenfl]

Oh, man, my patience has been shot today. DD's on a short fuse, and I'm getting right to the verge of losing it a lot more quickly. I think I've done a good job of seeing that the edge is coming up and backing off, but I'm certainly not myself.

Here's to parents/grandparents living nearby! We go to my parents' house one or two days on the weekends (when DH is working night shift/sleeping), and even on her short fuse they were able distract her with books and snacks for about an hour while I laid down and drifted in and out of sleep.