Originally Posted by DM630
Raene How are you doing? Are you holding your baby yet?
Nope, looks like Wazzmum is right and it might be this weekend instead. I had a 40 week appt with the midwife yesterday and was unusually firm with her (usually I am not good at asking for what I need b/c I'm a shy and quiet person). I told her I'm miserable emotionally, I'm not sleeping well, I want to be done, I'm dreaming of hospital induction, etc...very unlike me. She doesn't believe in membrane sweeps but I told her I wanted one. She said she hasn't done them in years b/c she noticed they often lead to prolonged labor. But she is an acupuncturist and is going to set me up tomorrow with an appt if there's still no baby. Her take on it of course is to be patient, and she and my partner talked about how that's my lesson in this pregnancy and it hasn't happened yet. Hmmf. The appointment was greatly reassuring though. She's guessing the baby is about 7 lbs 4 oz and I have plenty of fluid, so I should be fine with waiting for a while. She also gave me some cohosh to try if I want to. And she told us she had a birth dream that we had an amazing waterbirth, and she said she doesn't usually dream about client's births, but it sounded really great
Anyway, after the appointment I felt SO much better emotionally. I've had such a fear of a tiny baby since that's what she said to me in the past, and a fear of not enough fluid levels b/c I was previously measuring small. Last night I had a great night's sleep for the first time in a long time.
After sleeping well I feel better about waiting. I do believe in babies choosing their arrival dates when possible and this is completely my problem (the impatience). I need to get better at relaxing and surrendering. I think it's been especially hard because a) I had complications that were supposed to cause preterm labor, so I never thought I'd still be pregnant now, and b) I was pregnant with my first for shorter than this...and most people are pregnant longer the first time, so it's been a little hard for me.
I hope to have a birth story on the sooner side! We shall see.