Hey nonny all!
So, we've got a ceiling in the sleep loft, the contractor got part of the foundation hole dug despite the rain, and I'm still pregnant (though contracting more or less non-stop). On the down side, the girls pushed the computer off the shelf today and I was "internet free" as a result (had to stay here, inside, with two crazy active girls on the first sunny day in a long time because the contractor was here and all the machinery meant we couldn't be in the yard). DH has managed to get this working, but I'm not sure how "well", you know?
Camp- well, I did a bunch of research for a "beyond the basics" week but never actually put it in a "camp format". I keep meaning to just throw it out as a general spirituality thread but haven't... not really sure why. Hmmmm. Actually, I think the overall problem was the bar got set so high last summer I feel like I should have the information organized and "prettied up" and be involved in an active way with the progress of the thread. So I'm running into the classic procrastinator/perfectionist dilema. Put out a sub-par camp thread or no thread at all. And while my brain says "just put it up" my emotions say "don't do it unless you can do it right". So I weeble-peeble-wobble and don't actually get anything done. I wonder if other people feel/felt the same way? It's been a very odd summer I think... so many people have just been smacked by the universe. While I'm sure it'll eventually smooth out for everyone, it seems like each week brings new difficulties for everyone.
Daily card- it's pretty basic. I have a rune deck I really like (it blends Irish seasonal imagery with Norse rune work). Each morning I shuffle the deck and pull a card for "the message/theme of the day" and then a card for each family member. The "whole day" card gives me a touchstone for how the day might shape up, or how it might be helpful to approach things during the day. And the individual people cards give me a quick idea for how each person might be feeling/reacting to the events of the day. Some days I forget, but it's something that takes just a few seconds to do and it helps connect me to other ways of looking/seeing which is a good way for me to start the day.
Discord- actually, has anyone read Tracy's Cancer New Moon article? It talks in part about how this is going to be a tough month in terms of communication and family/friend interactions and YOWSA has today been rough. I don't want to go into details, but basically I got a phone call this morning telling me (third hand) that my mom is planning on sending my dad to live with his parents "as soon as the baby is born", but that this isn't an option (his parents are infirm and not able to provide the level of support he needs) and what do I plan on doing about it? Our babe is due this week, we have a two room home and share a family bed in part because there isn't SPACE for seperate beds, and suddenly I'm supposed to find a "solution" to where my dad is going to live while my mom get's on with her life? Now, my mom and I don't talk. But I do understand and sympathize with the challenges she has faced since my dad's illness. Still, to learn from someone who was called by someone else that my mom is leaving my dad... and then to find out that in fact she "can't" leave him in the way she intends... and then to be informed that somehow this is all my fault and if I'd been a better daughter none of this would have happened... and now I need to "fix" it? ARGH!!!!!!!! Not what I need.
Bleh. No wonder this kiddo is taking his sweet time despite the contractions. He doesn't want to be born in the middle of a family fued!