I'm done

[Raene]

Sorry this isn't going to be pretty.

I've been nauseous every day this week, hurting a lot with baby movements, and now I'm so bitchy, sad, and I just feel like bursting into tears. I'm a short-tempered mother and I can't stand myself (or anyone else) right now.

I just want to be done. In my house, induction is a dirty word. But honestly I have been daydreaming about it, since my prayers to go any day now have so far gone unanswered.

I've been trying the natural induction things, nipple stimulation, sex, spicy food, bumpy rides, long walks, acupressure, red raspberry...but nothing. I'm sooo depressed.

Thanks for listening. I hate being pregnant. I am so done in that I can't take any more, but apparently I don't have a choice.

[usmcwfe]

Hang in there mama. I also feel "done" and I'm irritated with myself. Tired of being unfortable and queezy. But I'm trying to enjoy what I can before this baby comes. I'm trying to just enjoy spending time with my girls, it will never be the same once I have the baby. And I know I'll miss this belly onces its gone and flabby again! I read on another post that other mamas were doing "rewards" for themselves to stay motivated. I'm trying that. So this saturday I'm finally using a gift certificate for a pedicure, something I've never done before. And the next week i want to get my hair done. Actually I just want them to wash my hair and give me a head massage! And in between I'm taking my dd out to the movies which should be fun.. So I'm hoping these things help keep me motivated and grounded. Good luck!!!!!! Hang in there!!!!

[Coconut Chronicles]

Oh hun... I am so sorry I think the reward idea that usmcwfe mentioned is an awesome one! You are doing an amazing job growing your baby and you deserve it.

[chi_mama]

the reward idea is great. Also, are you getting some time for yourself? It's so hard to be a "nice" mom when your feeling badly. Can you try and get a couple for hours to yourself each day to relax or sleep or read trashy romance novels? I've been pretty into sappy movies and books and music lately... it's sounds dumb but I'm emotional and that way I am crying at something external and easily set aside instead of becoming overemotional about interactions w/ family and friends that are harder to put away.

[Jilian]

Yes, find some sort of reward. If you cannot afford something fancy just go to the library alone for the day and read. Or sleep in. Or have your DP make you a special breakfast in bed. Do something to make yourself feel special, and set it for a few days from now so it gives you something to look forward to.

I have moments of feeling done and defeated too and it takes a lot of work not to wallow (sp?) in those feelings. Think in terms of days. It helps me a lot. I am ok with being pregnant until the weekend but the thought of 5 more weeks makes me want to cry. So I take it in 3 day increments.

[R1coryR1]

is there a swimming pool you can go just float in for awhile. hang off the edge and zone out for an hour? i've been trying to go every couple of days for just a little bit of zero-gravity down time, give the kidneys a break, stretch out and let the pressure off the tailbone.

and then i go home and eat half a pint of ben & jerrys and sit in front of the AC unit.

just indulge yourself. you're almost there...

[wombatclay]

Hang in there! My "rewards" have been pretty tiny, and I'm still grumpy mama, but it really does help. Yesterday DH took the girls for a half hour in the evening and I sat in Barnes&Noble all by myself looking at craft books. And a few nights ago I painted my toenails and used the "good" lotion after my shower. Just tiny things.

But I know you've had a really tough pregnancy and that makes everything so much harder... soon enough your babe will be here!

[mama*pisces]

I agree with the pool and the reward idea. Find some way to pamper yourself. Hang in there, mama.

[NaturalMindedMomma]

AWW sweetie. I'm sorry. I remember this feeling. I did some techniques and I believe one of them may have tipped the scales. It took a while though. I think my body was honestly ready anyways. Have you tried using a breast pump? I did use nipple stim at the hospital to make the contractions go go go.

The reward idea is good. Being sore is no fun. Sending labor vibes and big hugs.

[Talula Fairie]

right there with you, mama. I totally understand.

[sunshynbaby]

Ditto on being done!!! I just wish I could get that message through to the LO. I think he likes it in there

[puddleduck]

yep, i've reached my limit (will be 40 weeks on sat) and i'm grumpy as hell, everyone needs to go away and leave me alone, ds1 & ds2 have been watching dvd's all afternoon while i hide away in a dark room. I have a cough which makes my tummy hurt and i can't face leaving the house. I have lost motivation for life. But... i actually thought the grumpy / hormonal thing was a good sign? extra oestrogen being released into the blood stream means i'll be in labour soon, like PMT? or maybe i'm just being hopefull. DS2 was born at 41 +6 so i would be surprised if i give birth any time in the next week but we can only hope.
I can't even be bothered to try any natural induction techniques, all seems like too much effort, can't i just lie in bed and eat chocolate?

[mamadelbosque]

Right there with you. I'm seriously contemplating asking about induction on friday. Somethign I *NEVER* dreamed I'd even be considering... but I am just SO FRIGGING SICK AND TIRED of this!!!

[sunshynbaby]

Originally Posted by mamadelbosque

Right there with you. I'm seriously contemplating asking about induction on friday. Somethign I *NEVER* dreamed I'd even be considering... but I am just SO FRIGGING SICK AND TIRED of this!!!

My OB said she would induce me as soon as Monday... and I'm considering it too! I really wanted to wait until he was ready to come out or delay it until the last possible day she will let me go to, but I'm just so done!

[Raene]

Originally Posted by chi_mama

an you try and get a couple for hours to yourself each day to relax or sleep or read trashy romance novels?

Yes, I've been on an anti-book streak for most of the pregnancy for some reason, but in the past week I've read several books. That does help!

Originally Posted by R1coryR1

is there a swimming pool you can go just float in for awhile. hang off the edge and zone out for an hour? i've been trying to go every couple of days for just a little bit of zero-gravity down time, give the kidneys a break, stretch out and let the pressure off the tailbone.

and then i go home and eat half a pint of ben & jerrys and sit in front of the AC unit.

just indulge yourself. you're almost there...

Yeah, we went swimming last night, actually. The pools are still SOOO cold here though that it's hard to make myself get in, and it's not very comfortable in the cold. Ben and Jerry's, yum!

Originally Posted by wombatclay

And a few nights ago I painted my toenails...

HOW can you reach your toes??? I'm not even huge and I can't reach one of my feet, lol.

Originally Posted by mamadelbosque

Right there with you. I'm seriously contemplating asking about induction on friday. Somethign I *NEVER* dreamed I'd even be considering... but I am just SO FRIGGING SICK AND TIRED of this!!!

Lucky. I wish that was an option with my homebirth midwife.

[Talula Fairie]

I want to know how you reached your toes too, Wombat! I can if I open my legs and wrap around, but not anymore since I have SPD.

[Hezzie]

Oh mama, I totally hear you. I am 39+2 and about to scream in frustration. My baby FINALLY dropped a few days ago, nice and low and I was so excited because I got some relief from heartburn and knew that babe was getting into position for labor. Then, this morning, babe starts creeping up into my ribcage again. I totally lost it and said out loud, "NO NO NO Elevator Baby! You STAY down there! The top floor is no longer accessible!" and started pushing back. Baby did NOT like this and kept nudging and kicking, but I kept pressure there for like 15 minutes until he/she finally slid back down. Lol, this kid and I are already having power struggles...I dread what the terrible two's or the teen years will be like.

I am so anxious for any sign of labor...nesting instinct, bloody show, SOMETHING. Nothing. Nada. I would feel so much better if my body would just do something (last week I was 1 cm, 80% effaced, no clue where I am this week as MW had to put off appointment until tomorrow because she attended a super long labor). I have also half-heartedly started trying nipple stimulation but it's not working. Baby just isn't ready and I want to scream. The sad thing is...money is so tight and I really need a job and no one will talk to me/hire me because I'm pregnant. I just want this baby to come out so people will see me as a possible candidate instead of an automatic "no way." That's making my anxiety and frustration worse. I feel like I'm a horrible mother because I want to do what's right for my family (work) but also need to do what's best for baby (wait and be patient).

[wombatclay]

Well, it's not elegant, and it's not the best polish job, but...

I hike one leg up on the toilet seat and sort of lean sidways around my belly. It's hard to explain (and no way in heck am I going to let someone take pictures of the process! ) but I'm sort of painting my toes from the side. I make sure there's a lo of polish on the brush and then later on I go back with a qtip dipped in polish remover to sort of "clean off" the polish that ended up on my toes.

Oh, and you can also try sitting in an armchair (any chair with sides) and putting one foot up on your lap. Then lean over and paint the toes since they're a bit closer to you and you don't have to worry about balance. Just make sure your lap is protected since you'll kind of be polishing at a funky angle and things may drip.

I should add that everyone in my family is super flexible (to the point of heart and joint problems). I can stand flat footed and put my palms flat on the floor behind my feet without any effort or sensation of "stretching". And even when hugely pregnant (and I AM hugely pregnant right now, it's absurd and even the XL tank tops don't cover my belly anymore) I can touch my toes pretty easily if I'm in a position where the belly isn't an issue (say an yoga position with the leg to the side).

[Talula Fairie]

I am flexible like that too Wombat. I can do a full backbend in yoga with no problems, touch the floor in front of my toes, ect.

But because of the way I am carrying, I have to open my legs wide to get to my feet, and that aggravates my SPD really bad. Wah. I could really use a pedicure...hmmm....*scratches chin*

I am relieved to hear that someone else is having trouble finding ANY shirts -even in size XL- to cover their big belly. It really is kind of absurd. I think part of it is that my pants sit so low on me too becuase of the shape of my belly.

[wombatclay]

Hmmmm... this may be hard on the knees, but could you sit... hmmm... like if you sit back on your heels but then slip sideways (sort of the classic mermaid position) so that your top foot is resting against your outer thigh with the foot near your bum? It's how I'm sitting in the armchair right now (laptop resting on one arm of the chair, right leg mostly under me, left leg pushing against the other arm of the chair, belly supported by the "laptop" arm of the chair). You'd have to do one foot with your non-dominant hand, but in that position your legs would be closed and the belly kind of supported?