It's 5:45 am. Normally, at this hour I am in bed, maybe drowsily aware that it is morning and we will be getting up soon, snuggling my DH.
Every night has gotten worse lately. Every position has something uncomfortable about it, and it's gone from uncomfortable to painful. I wake up 5 times a night to change positions and try to trick myself into sleeping again. Then DH gets up, which wakes up our DS who loves to "help" him get ready for work. And the day starts for me. Chasing an 18 month old is about my limit right now, not to mention general managing of the house, grocery shopping, church, everything else that is going on in our lives. When I can sleep, I can manage it. But as I've mentioned, I'm sleeping less and less lately.
I've always been all about letting Baby choose its birth day. I believe that is the best thing for everyone. But DS was 18 days past our due date, and this one doesn't seem eager to budge (though, I am only 38.5 weeks) In theory, I don't mind being a slow cooker. I don't mind giving them all the time they need, as long as they are healthy. But now I'm starting to think of sending an eviction notice... maybe I should exercise more and make the baby a bit less comfortable...
I could just use some encouragement. I know I won't be pregnant forever. I know that no baby has ever stayed put for years on end. I know that this is something we'll get through and it'll be only a vague memory when this baby is lying in my arms. But, as I watch the clock approach the time when DH and DS will wake up, knowing that this time I'll be running on only about 5.5 hours of sleep, I wonder how I can keep doing this for the next couple of weeks. I'm just so tired...
Every night has gotten worse lately. Every position has something uncomfortable about it, and it's gone from uncomfortable to painful. I wake up 5 times a night to change positions and try to trick myself into sleeping again. Then DH gets up, which wakes up our DS who loves to "help" him get ready for work. And the day starts for me. Chasing an 18 month old is about my limit right now, not to mention general managing of the house, grocery shopping, church, everything else that is going on in our lives. When I can sleep, I can manage it. But as I've mentioned, I'm sleeping less and less lately.
I've always been all about letting Baby choose its birth day. I believe that is the best thing for everyone. But DS was 18 days past our due date, and this one doesn't seem eager to budge (though, I am only 38.5 weeks) In theory, I don't mind being a slow cooker. I don't mind giving them all the time they need, as long as they are healthy. But now I'm starting to think of sending an eviction notice... maybe I should exercise more and make the baby a bit less comfortable...
I could just use some encouragement. I know I won't be pregnant forever. I know that no baby has ever stayed put for years on end. I know that this is something we'll get through and it'll be only a vague memory when this baby is lying in my arms. But, as I watch the clock approach the time when DH and DS will wake up, knowing that this time I'll be running on only about 5.5 hours of sleep, I wonder how I can keep doing this for the next couple of weeks. I'm just so tired...
s I've had awful insomnia the last couple nights - like, awake from 2-4:30am. Last night I gave in and just got up and read and messed about online for a couple hours rather than toss and turn in bed.
