Major resurgence of postpartum depression

[elf]

My history: ppd after first baby treated with psychotherapy and vitamins. I would say when baby was about 9 month I was totally "Cured". looking back should have been on an ssri but i have hated them in the past so I try to avoid them at all costs.

so here we are....baby is 15 months, 3 months weaned off breastfeeding, cycle is finally normal....feeling good about everything and then all of a sudden this month (BAM) anger, rage, depression hits like an earthquake. It happened so suddenly it honestly scares me. Recently I hung out with a friend and her colicky baby. She cried A LOT while we hung out and nothing worked to stop it (hence the colick). I truly believe experiencing that baby put me right back into the spot I was in when my baby had colick. All those feelings of despair, hopelessness, failure, anger. I was about to ttc and that expereince really made me reevaluate. I think I forgot really how hard and terrible those first 3 months were with our little, tiny, won't grow, colicky baby.

anyways, do you think hanging around a colicky baby could have been a trigger for my current emotions? like post traumatic stress disorder?

[mom0810]

I had PTSD after the birth of my first child, and yes, this could have triggered something in you.

You could either give this some time, or you could call your therapist and go back for a few sessions, or you could try another exposure, because exposure to your trigger is the only thing that will get you past the PTSD. But you and your therapist should really figure out if you are ready for that.

I took ssri medication for my PTSD and PPD, and it really helped. I was also in therapy. I got pregnant again during the therapy, and it actually was a very great thing. I had to face all of those fears and although yes, it was very scary, I did it! And I am much better these days.

I'm sorry for your experience, and I really hope that you feel better and brighter soon.

[darcytrue]

I definitely think it may have triggered it. I had such a rough time after the birth of my second child and we would hold her and listen to certain songs over and over just to calm her night after night. I finally got to where I could actually listen to those songs on the radio a couple of years ago when my DD was around 5 years old. Yeah, it took me that long. I would hear those songs on the radio and turn it off immediately. I just couldn't stomach it as it brought back so many memories and they weren't happy days at the time when it was all happening. You may not be over the PPD. Have you thought about trying meds for a while? I suffer from depression when not post partum and have to occasionally take meds for it.