2yr old not nursing but upset about it

[bbrandonsmom]

Can some one help me out here maybe? Ds turned 2 in July. But in May I was in a car accident and unfortunately it was a bad thing. It resulted in a mc and I was in the hospital a few days, and my mil was at my home. So when I got back home, my ds2 wanted to nurse when he was upset/tired, but I felt really wierd about it with mil in the home, so would tell him to wait. Also I had taken this abx that wasn't safe for nursing, so couldn't nurse him until it was out my my system. When mil left, ds didn't seem interested, though I offered at various times. Then when we went on vaca, he had a hard time sleeping so would sleep w/ me and want to nurse. But, there wasn't enough to satisfy him, so he just wanted to keep playing around with latching on/off etc.
When we got home, any time he got upset he wanted to nurse, but there is not enough to pacify him. Just yesterday he was super upset-he fell and wanted to nurse, but when I offered he shook his head and said "cup".
So I don't know what to do. I am upset this whole weaning took place the way it did. I just didn't have the strength to refuse the abx at the hospital which is what primarily did it for us. I really needed to continue nursing him and have that emotional bond through the mc. I felt like I lost that I was going to be nursing a new baby again, and now suddenly had stopped nursing my current baby.
I don't know what to do with ds. He asks, but then refuses and is upset about the whole thing. Does he just want to see if I'll let him try? Does he really want to nurse again? Would it be weird to start nursing him again after 3 months of not nursing? And I can't pump enough to put in a cup for me, which is what I think he really wants-he does not like nor want cow milk. So I can't tell him it's mummy milk, he'll taste the difference. If I start pumping daily, will my supply build back enough to pump him some? There's really not much there at all.

[MLA]

I don't have any advice about the nursing, itself. But I wanted to offer some hugs. What a terrible situation all around. I'm really sorry for your loss (both of your baby and of your breastfeeding relationship).

Regarding his distaste for cow's milk, a friend of mine has a 22 month old who doesn't much like cow's milk, either. And she can't produce enough milk to satisfy him. She's found that mixing almond milk w/water or cow's milk seems to be a good substitute for her own milk. I suppose it's sweeter than cow's milk. Her DS likes it.

[TiredX2]

At that young age, I would treat it as any other nursing strike. Offer often, bathe together, sleep topless, etc... I'm sorry that circumstances conspired against you.