Thank you so much for your support and guidance. I REALLY needed it. I'm feeling in a much better place right now... although not in labor, I don't think.
I had a great day (despit the lows) and just got back from a great walk (3 hours) all by myself. I really had time to reconnect to higher power, my baby and myself. I talked and sang through ctx. It was really wonderful. Throughout the walk my ctx were coming closer and closer together. But, when I got home, they went away. I trust my babe will come when ready. I'll just participate in my birth experience as it is. I'm not a textbook.
Laura -- That is such a great visual about flowing around doubts. Oh, I love it.
Steph -- Thank you so much for offering to be with me. I just feel like I really want to be alone right now. It's what I crave. Thank you for understanding. And, if my need for privacy and alone time shifts, I'll know to call you. You're a great support. Thank you.
wildthing -- thanks for the vibes!
Due dates -- I didn't give it much clout until I got close to the end. Now, I'm trying to liberate myself from it a bit. So, keeping the date fuzzy sure seems like a good idea! (I always choose the latest possible date... and then, shhhh, add a little on)