My Pity Party

[LilWin]

Saw the midwife this morning and I'm off to the hospital tomorrow for tests and a talk about inducing labour. After 42 wks they don't do home deliveries anymore so everything I was hoping for is now gone.
The inducement scares the sh*t out of me, had an IV with DD because the birth process came to a stop after transfer to the hospital (she was breech) and that stuff they put in the IV is pure poison. It was one long contraction that made me feel really weird and I was a wreck for an entire week (esp emotionally) after her birth. Really not something I want again, but it looks like I'll be heading down that road again.
I'm just so mad and sad.

[sky_and_lavender]

I'm so sorry, Christine. I would be very disappointed, too. Here in the US, you can sometimes find a midwife willing to be patient past two weeks overdue, but I'm not sure if that's the case in NL.

Anyway, since it seems you're going to have a hospital birth, one thing I would encourage you to remember is that every birth is different. Just because your last birth was pretty traumatic for you doesn't mean this one has to be. If the tests show everything is okay, maybe you can buy some more time before inducing. Even if not, maybe the induction will be easier on you this time around.

I'm hoping the best possible outcome for you, and excited for you to meet your baby!

[wombatclay]

Big hugs. And it's true... with dd1 I ended up with a really horrible birth experience that was very very hard to process emotionally but with dd2 (same hospital) I had an amazing birth experience that left me feeling on top of the world emotionally. I was so worried with dd2's birth that it would in some way "repeat" dd1's birth and that did cause some problems but overall I have to say the two births were like night and day.

So while I completely understand the fear of going back to the hospital, try to focus on the fact that this is a different babe, a different birth, that you are a different person than you were... and while it wont be the homebirth you wanted and planned for it can still be a wonderful and emotionally fulfilling experience. Can you do some journaling or meditation/visualization or birth art or something over the next day or two to help you release some of the tension/disappointment you feel and to prepare for the birth?

Hang in there and good luck!

[mrsrayray]

aww

i'm a 43 weeker so i adjust my due date by at least one week and inform my midwife at the first appointment that the due date is at least one week later. then, i don't go any more than 2 weeks past that date, so it all works out.

if i was somewhere that had a time limit before induction (such as midwives at a doc office with my first baby) i would lie and tell them my period was two weeks later than it was. at least then the pressure is off. :P