My high school best friend is gone.

[Juvysen]

and I'm having a hard time processing it.

Her mother posted on facebook that it was a suicide yesterday, and I had heard from multiple sources (rumors) that it was a shotgun, but a couple people that were close to the family said she had slit her own throat... but then the short article in the paper said

The detective said he was uncomfortable with the scene, and wanted a thorough investigation.

and EVERYONE is saying she slit her own throat... but... that sounds uncommon at best, and not like her, at worst. She was a vet tech (and in vet school, finally, which she was beyond thrilled about!) and not cool with pain... she totally could have shot herself up with something for horses or dogs or something. I'm just having a hard time buying the suicide thing ... but maybe that's just normal. My first thought, though, was seriously that she would do it via a pill overdose... but I could buy the shotgun thing because she was so prone to doing impulsive things and regretting them later. But slitting her own throat? I dunno... I'm having a hard time buying it...

*sigh*

But then, maybe the rumors are all wrong and it was bloody because she slit her wrists... but then why would the cops investigating it so thoroughly?

Last night I cried and cried... and then was numb... and then was angry that she could let herself do something impulsive like that...

And now I'm just confused. And sad. And scared to look her parents (who were like second parents to me) in the eye.

I've never lost someone close to me before...

And for it to be like this. Gah. It'd be so much easier to "get" a car accident or something :

Thanks for listening. I need to get this out.

*** ETA ***

Turns out her wrists AND her throat were slit... is that even possible to do to yourself??

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[Teenytoona]

I am so sorry.

[Amandamanda]

im so sorry jenna..

[Carley]

I am so sorry - try to be good to yourself!!!

/edit I know nothing can make you feel better & not knowing what happened must be excrutiating, but suicides are always treated like homocides in order to rule everything out. I'm sure it will be a relief to you once she can finally be put to rest

[jjawm]

I am so sorry. I lost my high school best friend a few months ago. It's so horrible. And for it to be a suicide is even worse. Take care of yourself.

[Juvysen]

Gah... One of her more current friends said the boyfriend she just broke up with was the jealous type and she broke up with him because they kept fighting about whether or not she was cheating on him I so hope this was not related

[HarperRose]

I am so sorry. I lost my aunt to suicide 2 yrs ago. It's so heart wrenching and confusing and everything all at once.

[becoming]

I'm really sorry, OP.

[PretzelMama]

I'm so sorry.

[Juvysen]

Huh... i'm not sure how to change the title, but I updated in the first post. I'm really scratching my head over this.

[HarperRose]

Originally Posted by Juvysen

Huh... i'm not sure how to change the title, but I updated in the first post. I'm really scratching my head over this.

Just caught your update. That's really.... well, that's freaking weird. Something doesn't seem right.

[Juvysen]

I know.

Today's the funeral. *sigh*

[BookGoddess]

I'm sorry.

Originally Posted by Juvysen

Huh... i'm not sure how to change the title, but I updated in the first post. I'm really scratching my head over this.

If you to the Advanced Edit option in Edit you can change the thread title.

[shaywyn]

I am so sorry.

[caro113]

I am so sorry for you loss.

And no, I don't think you can slit your own throat and your wrists. I'm sure they are investigating.

FWIW when I was in college I found out a high school friend of mine had died. They said she killed herself and her 5yo daughter. They were both hung. There was no way she would have killed that little girl. She loved that little girl more than anything. Anyhow, that was in 2005 or 2006. Earlier this year, they finally announced they were treating it as a homicide and had a suspect. A few months ago he was convicted and sent to death row. He even logged on to her email and myspace to send out suicide notes. Anyhow, the point of my story is, they may say it's a suicide to throw off the actual killer, to make him think he got away with it.

I hope you can find some peace soon. You definitely need it. {{hugs}}

[PlayaMama]

i am so so sorry. that sounds really weird. i don't think it is possible to do that to yourself, i've always heard that you can't slit your own throat. poor woman.