For nearly 10 years I identified myself as Pagan. While living out of the state I am currently in, I had become aquainted with a group of Pagans who really made it feel like home. I really admired the high priestess, and many others in that particular grove that I felt I could look up to and learn so much from. When I came back to MI and had to leave my comfortable little grove, I got on the move to find a new group of like-minded Pagans. I met several groups online and met with them at various get togethers. I was very uncomfortable with what I was seeing. Each group talked about the other groups I had attended and the people in it. No one seemed very serious about practicing, and I just didn't click with the people I was meeting. It was very disapointing. So, I tried some solitary practice for a while and it didn't feel right either. I like the structure and formality of a circle and ritual with a group of serious practitioners.
I decided to start working on myself and found my way into Buddhism. I have stuck with the Buddhist studies for quite some time now. But, I feel like there is so much missing. I strongly believe in the core beliefs of Buddhism, and even if I were to go back to Pagan study I would still follow the path of Buddhism pretty closely. I think the two go hand in hand nicely. I miss connecting with the Gods and Goddesses. I just know that I would want to practice with a group, and I have been so put off by what I have found that it makes me nervous to try and connect again with the path. I have very traditional beliefs when it comes to Pagans... and I find that most practice a more watered down version of what I believe.
Does anyone have any advice on what I should do? Am I in the wrong and being too judgemental? I am feeling a strong pull back to Paganism, so how would I find a group of like-minded individuals? I have books on solitary practice, but I just. can't. get. into. it! Does anyone have any rituals that will help point me in the right direction?
I decided to start working on myself and found my way into Buddhism. I have stuck with the Buddhist studies for quite some time now. But, I feel like there is so much missing. I strongly believe in the core beliefs of Buddhism, and even if I were to go back to Pagan study I would still follow the path of Buddhism pretty closely. I think the two go hand in hand nicely. I miss connecting with the Gods and Goddesses. I just know that I would want to practice with a group, and I have been so put off by what I have found that it makes me nervous to try and connect again with the path. I have very traditional beliefs when it comes to Pagans... and I find that most practice a more watered down version of what I believe.
Does anyone have any advice on what I should do? Am I in the wrong and being too judgemental? I am feeling a strong pull back to Paganism, so how would I find a group of like-minded individuals? I have books on solitary practice, but I just. can't. get. into. it! Does anyone have any rituals that will help point me in the right direction?
