Secondary infertility-need a pep talk

[shellnurse]

I wish I could just accept and learn to live with having a lonely child. She's really into having a brother or sister and after two years of TTC #2. I'm a bit fried. People assume it's my choice to not have another and we are still in the unexplained infertility area.

I tried vitex and stopped ovulating and I can't temp related to my daughter being up during the night. I'm looking into fertility diets and each book has contradictory advice. I just learned that I have urea mycoplasma- it could hinder fertility, but maybe not. So DH and I are on doxycycline for 10 days. We had planned on doing clomid and IUI this month, but the urea mycoplasma threw me for a loop and I'd rather not mix doxy with clomid. I have an HSG scheduled for Monday and acupuncture throughout September.

Since I had a horrible pregnancy and a traumatic birth I wonder why I'm torturing myself again. I've had two years to contemplate all the negatives of having a child, but I know if I give up I will really regret it later. Right now I'm feeling quite low. I don't want to feel hopeful so I can avoid the despair when AF arrives next.

All this "work" for two years and still no baby! Anyone in the same boat? Any advice?

[mmpmelmack]

I know exactly what you mean, all DS wants is someone to play with, and even if I get to have another child, it wont be for at least 10 months, so he cant really play with them anyways. We just started infertlity testing, infact i had my first blood work done today, we have been using natural stuff for the last two years, accupunture, dairy free and gluten free, and vitex and dong quai. I am just done with all of it, I want to be pregnant and I want to be pregnant right now! good news for me is that I started my period for the first time in four months just 4 days ago, so I finally get to hope for an O. anyways just wanted to let you know you arent alone, there are lots of people with secondary infertility here. Best advice I have is keep the goal in sight, and try not to let the day to day or month to month get you down. Hugs.