over 9yrs and i'm fineally ready to tell

[beckyand3littlemonsters]

april 2000 and my period dd came and went with no sign of af i started getting little niggly symptoms sore breasts, tiredness, needing to pee more often, feeling sick but i didn't test cos i wanted to wait a few weeks first just to make sure i wasn't imagening it all, i didn't tell anyone either.
come 24th april i was about 2-3 wks late so that night i decided i was going to buy a test the following day.
25th (testing day) i woke up with stomach cramps but didn't think anything of it m went to work (or at least thats where i thought he was going) and i was going to go back to sleep but noticed i felt wet and when i checked noticed i was bleeding and quite heavily and when i went to the toilet i noticed some big clots
i've never told anyone till now, wasn't sure what people would say.
thanyou for your time

becky

[caro113]

I'm sorry for loss.

Not to minimize it at all, but I wonder if you were stressed into being late and then when it came, it really came. I only wonder bc it happened to me. I stressed about something (I was in college so it was probably a test or something) and I ended up being two weeks late, which technically means you missed it. I was always tired and exhausted so those symptoms never came to play. A little over two weeks after I was supposed to get my period, something very similar happened. I felt wet and I went to the bathroom and huge blood clots came out. Now that I think about it, it was similar to the pp blood clots.

I, too, often wondered if I miscarried, but after a while I realized that I didn't really know and it just didn't feel like I had, so I assume I never did. But if you feel you did, then by all means, you should feel whatever it is you feel. You should grieve in whatever way feels appropriate to you. And don't let anyone tell you you are wrong for doing so.

Would that baby have been with your current partner? Would you be able to talk with him about it and tell him how you are feeling? Hopefully he would be able to help comfort you in your time of need.

I hope you find the peace you are looking for. {{hugs}}

[orangefoot]

I'm sorry you feel that you have had to keep this to yourself for so long and I hope that letting it out will bring you closer to some peace.

[ckberkey]

I am sorry for your loss. s

[bcblondie]

I'm sorry you are going through this. Sometimes not knowing for sure is worse than actually knowing.
This is why I always test, even before I'm due for my period. I would hate to have conceived, miscarried and not know for sure. *hugs!!*

[dianakaye]

Thanks for sharing... I hope it helps bring you peace.

[georgia]

Here's an article that might be of comfort to you.