Originally Posted by tifpaul
Pixie, how are you doing?
Update us on the newborn?
Originally Posted by baltic_ballet
Hope you're doing ok Pixie, I am still thinking of you and your family
Thank you so much mamas. I was touched when I clicked in here and saw someone was thinking about us.
I'm still kinda a wreck from the loss, well, it's just a week ago so. It's like waves hitting me all the time, sometimes I can stand strong against them, and sometimes they knock me of my feet.
It'll take some time to grieve the loss of my baby, and I'm just taking it. I haven't told many, just the closest, and they are all being supportive.
I still have this emptiness inside of me, that's just filling me. And I'm just terribly sad and devastated. But I still enjoy the kids every day, they are so amazing, they keep me going. And my dear is wonderful.
Our newborn, she's doing a lot better, just this last week or so, she is a lot calmer now. Her body just has a whole other calm in it, hard to explain. But she doesn't flail and fuss right away if I put her down for a second without wraping her tightly in something. She settles easier, she sleeps more and better. She cries a lot less. It's all good, for all of us.
We still carry her on us in a wrap for most of the day, bc we want to and she needs it. The last few night she has been sleeping next to me, instead of on me, snuggled up close, but still next to me.
It's going in the right direction.
Poor thing still goes by the name tiny though, we need to name her, we been talking about it more every night now, discussing names and ideas. (I think I've been secretly "waiting" on the birth mom but it's not going to happen.)