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post #221 of 595
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Originally Posted by CariOfOz View Post
THAT is just what Quinn was like most of this past week! I completely empathize with ya there hun..
I was supposed to hit the craft store with a friend, but I have got a crackin headache ....
thanks, sweets, and right back attcha! ugh. he seems MUCH better today, thank the gods! (although now i'm worried about his gums... would it be normal for a kiddo to have sort of paler than normal gums after having been sick? i dont know that i've ever noticed that before.... i am being rather obsessive about his mouth though because of his big bump (his teeth were bugging him badly for a while after that)....)
aww, hope your head is better, that was me yesterday...

just got back from craft store... got my threads and fabric for the year-o-crafting project... i'm thinking i'm not going to do a bead element afterall, though, as my beads just dont seem to be able to keep to the same meaning for any extended period of time...


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Originally Posted by Maiasaura View Post
That oughtta bring up my 65% grade in that class ... I know we have, but it sounded like you had more definitive plans, this time. ... It's my cousin's birthday, too. ...she wanted to change her birthday...
oopsie! yay on the awesome test score, though!
yeah, well, we keep going back and forth, but the feeling seems to be increasingly that we're being told not to stay, so we've gotten a bit more serious about leaving.... it's going to be hard, though... ds lurves his nana...
i'm fairly sure the couple celebrate on an alternate day now...


~~~~ ok, has anyone heard from clay???
i dont know that i've ever known her to stay totally away for a whole week before....... i'm sure she's just keeping low with the new babe, but it seems so unlike her, and i get so freaked when people do that....... yes, i'm a worrier. anyhow-- hope you're doing ok, hon!!!
post #222 of 595
My sister went back to her husband..................*explode*
post #223 of 595
I;m starting my Yule gifts for the kids *hides*. I am making them with my own two hands, so I need plenty of time. Erin is getting a gnome house, 3 gnomes and a book. Bella and Gilli are unknown at this point.
I have the grass done, and started the house portion. My hands hurt so I stopped, but it is already looking cute.
post #224 of 595
Aeress, that sounds totally cute! I don't make stuff, but I've already bought things, so I'll hide with you
I don't see a thing wrong with planning ahead. Especially since once it's August, Yule seems to creep up so fast!! Plus, with me in school, I don't/won't have time to do a major shopping, nor will I want to, all at once in December when the stores are super crowded. I hate doing it all at the last minute anyway, because then it feels like an obligation and not like a want-to. So this year I've already bought stuff and put it away, for ds. Santa found a Nintendo DS on sale. I'm thinking I'm insane

I think next year is the year DS will decide about Santa-- I just get that feeling. This year, he even said "Why don't you see about going halfsies with Santa on a Nintendo DS" (not exact words but similar sentiment). So I think he has an idea. But I've been telling him since he was a very little that Santa is a spirit, like a god, and not a real person, and whoever wears the suit (or acts in the Spirit Of Giving) embodies the spirit anyway. So that when the time came, all he'd have to do is make the leap to Mama Embodies The Spirit Of Santa, and I wouldn't have to explain any "lies" or anything.
Not that I ever, nor did my brother, accuse my parents of anything; I never heard of that till MDC, but wouldn't you know I'd prolly get the ds that would do such a thing!

Why am I waxing philisophical this evening....perhaps it's from 6 hours of studying dosage calculations? At least now I can decipher the gobbledegook on prescription pads!
post #225 of 595
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Originally Posted by aweynsayl View Post
just got back from craft store... got my threads and fabric for the year-o-crafting project... i'm thinking i'm not going to do a bead element afterall, though, as my beads just dont seem to be able to keep to the same meaning for any extended period of time...
I was at Michael's earlier today looking at all the beads. My head was swimming...what a huge selection. How does anyone ever choose what they need?

So, what are you going to be making if not bead elements? I am always curious about what people are crafting.

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Originally Posted by BellaLuna Rayne View Post
My sister went back to her husband..................*explode*
It's just part of the process, unfortunately. It is rare for a person to stay away after the first time. But it is a process. Instead of being angry with her for going back, maybe you could give her support for getting away. Not that you should feed her need to be the center of attention or melodramatic (if that is what's happening) but just know that she will leave when she's truly fed up and not a moment sooner.

My stepfather beat my mother on a fairly regular basis, beat all us children in her presence, did stupid things like shooting out all the lights on our christmas tree with his gun, belittled her, on and on and on.

The last time he beat her he damn nearly killed her. She was in the hospital for more than two weeks recovering. And even then she wouldn't file a police report and was ready to 'kiss and make up.' (This was in the 70s before there was much of a 'domestic violence' awareness, at least in the midwest.)

She finally kicked him out and filed for divorce because I said I wasn't going to live that way anymore. I told her that if she didn't leave him that I would tell the police about EVERYTHING that happened in our house and that they would take all of us away from her and put us in homes where we weren't beaten, yelled at or shot at. THAT finally motivated her and that was that, he never lived with us again. I tell you all of this to say that even when the abuse is horrific, they keep going back. In my mom's case, she was co-dependent. She enabled all his awfulness and lived for drama...too bad she had to take the rest of us along for this dysfunctional-ride.

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Originally Posted by Aeress View Post
I;m starting my Yule gifts for the kids *hides*. I am making them with my own two hands, so I need plenty of time. Erin is getting a gnome house, 3 gnomes and a book. Bella and Gilli are unknown at this point. I have the grass done, and started the house portion. My hands hurt so I stopped, but it is already looking cute.
What are you making them out of? Again, my curiosity. I have so many more things that I'd love to do and make than I'll ever have time for.

Sometimes I just feel like I'm going loopy. I have so many things I want to learn and do and be and just so many hours in the day.

I was driving today and thinking about how higgledy-piggledy my approach has been to all that I'm interested in and that I need to focus. The idea came to me that I need to have a daily focus so that when I have a bit of time to myself, I don't waste time thinking about what I want to do. Something like this:
Monday focus: spirituality (learning more about paganism, etc.)
Tuesday focus: fiber arts (knitting, sewing)
Wednesday focus: healing arts (herbalism, homeopathy, 'old wisdom' healing)}
Thursday focus: homeschooling (review of materials for following week as well as background reading, Steiner, for example.)

So, lovelies, where do I start with my spirituality work? I'm looking at the different threads here and looking at the books I have. I think maybe mediation is the place to start, so that I can see where I am led. I am not new to 'earth-based spirituality' that's been a part of me for 20 years or so...but I'm new to learning about paganism and delving in to see what resonates with me and what doesn't.

Ok, off to, well, I don't know what...Saturday is not on my list....
post #226 of 595
bella... *augh!* i sorry.

aeress~ that sounds wonderful! what are you making them out of?

maia, i like your notion. and, yes, it's probably the studying... sort of like how one stays up too late during finals week in the dorm stairwells having massive conclaves on medieval philosophy.... or was that just my dorm?

just got a pm from clay! their computer died (dang bad timing if you ask me)... she's missed us, as one can imagine , and should be here soon!

i just got back from the bead store... heehee. some little copper lovelies to add to my fun necklace creations. i should post pics... though i think i'm the only one who really thinks what i make is splendiferous....
post #227 of 595
(missed mary's post! that's what happens when one takes ages to rely because she has to stop and got get drinks for people and such, lol!)

choosing beads... i do it best totally intuitively. any time i've tried to get something specific for xyz purpose, it's not worked out... but when i just go in and hold them and sort of glaze over and feel that... "ahhh"... and get those, they wind up being wonderfully magical and make beautiful things.

year-o-crafting: i'm making an "all-seasons-tree" embroidery tapestry thing to hang over my altar. i was going to include beads, but... and i feel slightly like alice in the lookingglass, but my beads just dont hold their meaning for a very long time before they, i guess get bored, and decide to mean something else.

as for your lovely spirituality project, 10 points to the person who first guesses what my answer will be......................
post #228 of 595
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Originally Posted by BellaLuna Rayne View Post
My sister went back to her husband..................*explode*
: Hopefully next time she will find the courage to stay gone, it's not an easy thing to do even when you are miserably unhappy.

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Originally Posted by Aeress View Post
I;m starting my Yule gifts for the kids *hides*. I am making them with my own two hands, so I need plenty of time. Erin is getting a gnome house, 3 gnomes and a book. Bella and Gilli are unknown at this point.
I have the grass done, and started the house portion. My hands hurt so I stopped, but it is already looking cute.
Okk that sounds srsly adorable

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Originally Posted by aweynsayl View Post
maia, i like your notion. and, yes, it's probably the studying... sort of like how one stays up too late during finals week in the dorm stairwells having massive conclaves on medieval philosophy.... or was that just my dorm?

just got a pm from clay! their computer died (dang bad timing if you ask me)... she's missed us, as one can imagine , and should be here soon!

i just got back from the bead store... heehee. some little copper lovelies to add to my fun necklace creations. i should post pics... though i think i'm the only one who really thinks what i make is splendiferous....
lol think that was just your dorm Glad clay is ok, sucks that their computer picked that time to kick the bucket! I think your beady creations are tres awesome chicky


Going to throw the Fray/Frey.. whatever it is, on the ipod and groove around the house while I get some more spring cleaning done hehehe
post #229 of 595
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Originally Posted by aweynsayl View Post
(missed mary's post! that's what happens when one takes ages to rely because she has to stop and got get drinks for people and such, lol!)

choosing beads... i do it best totally intuitively. any time i've tried to get something specific for xyz purpose, it's not worked out... but when i just go in and hold them and sort of glaze over and feel that... "ahhh"... and get those, they wind up being wonderfully magical and make beautiful things.

year-o-crafting: i'm making an "all-seasons-tree" embroidery tapestry thing to hang over my altar. i was going to include beads, but... and i feel slightly like alice in the lookingglass, but my beads just dont hold their meaning for a very long time before they, i guess get bored, and decide to mean something else.

as for your lovely spirituality project, 10 points to the person who first guesses what my answer will be......................
Um, let's see, could it be....oh, this is hard....oh, it's just on the tip of my thumb....tapping? up:nana:

Well, you will be THRILLED to hear that I don't have that in my 'spirituality' day because it is part of my daily meditative/wellness practice. See, I knew you'd be excited about that. Seriously, it is awesome and helping me in so many ways.

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post #230 of 595
Oh, rats! I knew I'd forget something...

My mother has sent me a request to 'friend' me on facebook.

Yeah, the same mother that I just talked about up in Bella's post reply.

Ugh. When I got the email my reply (and I rarely curse at all) was, "oh, sh*t!"

I started down a spiral of not wanting to allow her into my life again.

Then I went out and hung up a bunch of clothes on the line and thought, "what am I afraid of?" Not only am I an adult, she lives 600 miles away and I've been away from her for more than half of my life.

I know that my issue isn't that she'll disapprove of anything I am, say or do...I could not care less what she thinks of me.

But then, standing there with clothespins in hand, I realized that it was churning up feelings from childhood, especially adolescence. And I thought, "Ooooh, I should tap that."
And so I did and am continuing. There are many layers in that dysfunction sandwich.

I'm not making any decisions about the 'friend request' yet. I want to see if I can get to a place of acceptance and sort of emotional detachment via tapping before I act.
post #231 of 595
Spedoickle! (and full geek points to the person who gets that reference )

So yes... the motherboard on our laptop fried itself. The geek squad don't know why and it's been shipped back to it's maker for analysis and repair. Thank every god and little apple that we bought the big honkin' "toddler proof" warranty when we got it 3 years ago. The repair is free (they threw in a backup before sending it off) and we got a huge discount on the brand new shiny netbook dh brought home. As in, the discount made it cheaper than their "rental" computer. So I now have bright luverly new tech smell competing with my yummy newborn smell creator.

And double yes to the bead timing! Though I remembered the techno- trouble mentioned by Tracy about a half hour after the computer went *pop*. But being trapped in the house with three little kiddos and no "way out" was not the giggle fest one might imagine.

We had 4 dr appointments, preschool started, there were meetings, bank visists, two therapy sessions for Ro, etc. And then Ro got sick/feverish and I pulled and all nighter going back and forth between Tor in the "big" bed and Ro in the "sibling bed". And today? Today I woke up with mastitis and by all that's painfully swollen, I finally called in an antibiotics request. I'm giving a few more options a try tonight, but DH HAS to be back at work for two huge 7am-8 or 9pm days this Monday and Tuesday so even if I manage to get the upper hand (breast?) tomorrow I'm sure the stress and "must be done" list on mon/tues will bumpit right back into the owie category. So I want those pills as a just in case. And a side serving of 'thrush cure" too.

Anyway, I'll try to catch up... between the fever and a netbook that is just a little different from our laptop (in terms of size/placement of keys and touchpad and in terms of pre-installed silliness I haven't figured out how to disable) my typing may be a touch more creative than usual.

Be nonny, be narf, and let's build a snowman!

(clue number two for those keeping score )
post #232 of 595
I wouldn't be so mad at her if this wasn't the like billionth time she's left him. They've only been together a year (married 1.5 months) and have broken up Gods know how many times. He even called my Mom last night to try and find her while we were out together. She left her phone in the car.....its creepy. He also showed up at our house today with his daughter, to take my sister home. At first she wasn't going to go, but then she left shortly after he did. Oh and they both are driving with suspended licenses.....*sigh*

I'm sitting here looking at the Midwifery Today Conference program and registration materials. I am trying to figure out how to 1) afford the conference and 2) afford a hotel room. I really, really, really, really, wanna go

Mary- My Dad, Grandpa and an Aunt are all on my facebook. Not to mention my sister's. The only family I don't have on there is my SUPER DUPER religious Uncle, Aunt and all their kids.

Treasure Map Question:

I have a relationship section on there. It says things like "we have an Army kind of love," "my marriage grows stronger every single day," "trust," "passionately," "let's build something together" and "b loves barbara." It has a picture of my ex and I kissing in the car, taken by my stepson before the ex deployed the first time....what do I do with this section???? Oh and it has hearts on the corners of the picture.....Idk what to do I don't really like seeing the side of my ex's head every morning when I wake up.
post #233 of 595
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Originally Posted by wombatclay View Post
Spedoickle!
Royal Minister of Stuff?

Hope you feel better soon, Clay.

Aeress- That sounds fabulous! Ds wants one thing and only one thing. A combined birthday/christmas/yule gift: Playmobil Pyramid set.
I better get busy selling books if I want to make his dream come true.
post #234 of 595
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Originally Posted by wombatclay View Post
Spedoickle! (and full geek points to the person who gets that reference )

Anyway, I'll try to catch up... between the fever and a netbook that is just a little different from our laptop (in terms of size/placement of keys and touchpad and in terms of pre-installed silliness I haven't figured out how to disable) my typing may be a touch more creative than usual.
LOL you know when you google spediockle this thread is the ONLY hit that comes up? Don't try to catch up.. you have enough on your plate woman! Just jump in occasionally where ever you are

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Then I went out and hung up a bunch of clothes on the line and thought, "what am I afraid of?" Not only am I an adult, she lives 600 miles away and I've been away from her for more than half of my life.

I know that my issue isn't that she'll disapprove of anything I am, say or do...I could not care less what she thinks of me.
And if it becomes an issue you can always say sorry mom, and defriend her

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Treasure Map Question:

I have a relationship section on there. It says things like "we have an Army kind of love," "my marriage grows stronger every single day," "trust," "passionately," "let's build something together" and "b loves barbara." It has a picture of my ex and I kissing in the car, taken by my stepson before the ex deployed the first time....what do I do with this section???? Oh and it has hearts on the corners of the picture.....Idk what to do I don't really like seeing the side of my ex's head every morning when I wake up.
I personally say burn it. That is your past life now, I'd either cut it out and destroy it, or make a smaller 'vision board' to paster OVER it. Fill it with your hopes for your new life, right now it only causes you regret & sadness... totally not what you want in a TM.
post #235 of 595
Hello all, and happy Autumn weather!!!

I have seen many of you post in other areas, but this is the first time I have ventured to "spirituality". I haven't read this entire thread, but you ladies sound absolutely amazing and I'm looking forward to chatting it up with you!

A few years ago, I realized that I'm Pagan for sure. It was a strange and laughable moment, as I really have lived my whole life as a Pagan. My parents are both very spiritual, and my dad in particular always paid a lot of attention to moon phases, the solstices, etc. They just never labeled what we were doing, so it took me like 30 years to find out! Anyway, I am very excited to return to my roots. It all feels so natural to me!

I haven't really scoped out the Pagan resources in my area, so I have pretty much been "practicing" and living it on my own. This means that it has been pretty casual. I'd really like to make our spirituality more part of our everyday lives...celebrating moon cycles and just taking time to enjoy the quiet beauty of the nature around us. I'm gonna work on that, and having a group like this to be apart of will really help motivate me!

Yeah for September!!
post #236 of 595
Welcome Meaggy! : :
post #237 of 595
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Originally Posted by BellaLuna Rayne View Post
I'm sitting here looking at the Midwifery Today Conference program and registration materials. I am trying to figure out how to 1) afford the conference and 2) afford a hotel room. I really, really, really, really, wanna go
Where is the conference? You might be able to make connections and find someone with an extra room to loan you in their own abode for a few days.

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Hello all, and happy Autumn weather!!!
post #238 of 595
Wow mamas, I have so much to catch up with. Just want to say a quick hi, hope everyone is enjoying the weekend.
post #239 of 595
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Originally Posted by BellaLuna Rayne View Post
Hi Mamas.

Still struggling even though its been a week since the divorce. My friend (ex's team leader from the 1st deployment) is telling me that I am living in the past. He's right. Its so hard to move on. I feel like ex is still deployed and that he is gonna call me any minute to tell me he misses and loves me. I'm pretty pathetic

My birthday is in exactly one month. I have no idea what to do for it. I hope things are immensely better by then.
It's been such a short time. Be easy on yourself.

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Originally Posted by BellaLuna Rayne View Post
My sister went back to her husband..................*explode*
I know someone doing the same thing right now. From the outside people see it's only a matter of time, but everyone needs to work through issues at their own pace. No matter how much advice they get they are still trying to decide where they are going.

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Originally Posted by Maiasaura View Post
I don't see a thing wrong with planning ahead. Especially since once it's August, Yule seems to creep up so fast!!
I agree, it comes up so fast. Plus everything in my family happens in Nov/Dec. kids b-day's, our anniversary, my b-day, not to mention all the other holiday's! My head is spinning!

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Originally Posted by mary3mama View Post

It's just part of the process, unfortunately. It is rare for a person to stay away after the first time. But it is a process. Instead of being angry with her for going back, maybe you could give her support for getting away. Not that you should feed her need to be the center of attention or melodramatic (if that is what's happening) but just know that she will leave when she's truly fed up and not a moment sooner.

My stepfather beat my mother on a fairly regular basis, beat all us children in her presence And even then she wouldn't file a police report and was ready to 'kiss and make up.' (This was in the 70s before there was much of a 'domestic violence' awareness, at least in the midwest.)
This is my family! My father did the same thing to my mother and us. Took her 15 years to leave, then left us with him!

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Originally Posted by preggymeaggy View Post
Hello all, and happy Autumn weather!!!

I have seen many of you post in other areas, but this is the first time I have ventured to "spirituality". I haven't read this entire thread, but you ladies sound absolutely amazing and I'm looking forward to chatting it up with you!

A few years ago, I realized that I'm Pagan for sure. It was a strange and laughable moment, as I really have lived my whole life as a Pagan. My parents are both very spiritual, and my dad in particular always paid a lot of attention to moon phases, the solstices, etc. They just never labeled what we were doing, so it took me like 30 years to find out! Anyway, I am very excited to return to my roots. It all feels so natural to me!

I haven't really scoped out the Pagan resources in my area, so I have pretty much been "practicing" and living it on my own. This means that it has been pretty casual. I'd really like to make our spirituality more part of our everyday lives...celebrating moon cycles and just taking time to enjoy the quiet beauty of the nature around us. I'm gonna work on that, and having a group like this to be apart of will really help motivate me!

Yeah for September!!
Hi and welcome..
post #240 of 595
Welcome Meaggy!

Spedoickle- my fault really, the "official spelling" is shpadoinkle apparently. And it's a term (and song) from Cannibal The Musical. An extremely low budget film school graduation project by Trey Parker (South Park)... about the first convicted cannibal in the US (a guy named Alferd Packer). It's a "true" story though told with Parker's usual twist (he portrays Packer as an idiot who is left as the fall guy instead of an intentional cannibal). The story is pretty odd, and the movie is VERY odd. But singable!

mastitis- well, my fever was still in the 101-102 range this morning and I alternate between shivering so hard I can't hold the baby and sweating like a rain cloud. My head splits open when I move and both breasts are now swollen/lumpy/hot/painful/red. You can actually feel the heat radiating off them from an inch or so away! DH is picking up the abx this afternoon... any ideas for preventing thrush? Last time this happened I put probiotic powder on my nipples but with such a little babe I'm not sure a cow milk based product is a good choice. Or am I over worrying?

year o craft- my plan is to get two wooden hoops (a big one and a smaller one) and use wire to suspend the small hoop in the middle of the big one... basically a wheel with a central hub. There will be 8 strands of wire, one for each major holiday. The inner hoop will be decorated in some way and represent "me as a woman". Each holy day I'll make a strand of beads or fiber art that represents an aspect of "what mothering means to me", exploring the energy of that season as it relates to mothering/life as a mother. I hope to encorporate bigger elements too... like volunteering at the local hospice aroiund Samhain while focusing on, say, mother as guardian of gentle death/life passages (with the beads representing things in my life that have "died" or need to be set free in order to grow as a mother) or donating breastmilk to the local NICU milk bank around Imbolc while focusing on the energies of new life and mother's milk/nurturing energies. That sort of thing.

So by the end of the year I should have a literal "wheel of the year" with myself at the center and a physical representation of mothering through the energies of the year.
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