jivamukti is a strong vinyasa flow sequence (generally speaking). it's a fun practice.
i also like kundalini and miss it. we don't have a kundalini teacher in our collective, and so i don't get any kundalini classes in. LOL mostly, free-form vinyasa is our deal (and some yin). so, htat's mostly what i get.
last night was a disappointment for me. we went with my husband's coworker Seema to see the North American swamiji for their guruji Sri Nithyananda. it was a talk, a meditation, a healing, and a meal.
well, we were told we could bring hawk, and so we did. he's walking now, so when he's awake, he's BUSY. for the most part, he's a quiet, happy baby, so it's not like he's too much to deal with, but he's on the move!
i expected that things like the altar, etc, would be up where he couldn't reach (on a table). he's flame crazy (likes to blow out candles), and he kept heading right for guriji's image (where the candle was) and trying to blow it out. then, when i would remove him, he would squawk. did i mention it was on the floor? anyway, i took him outside.
because we all came together--dh, hawk, and i--i couldn't leave and take hawk home, so i spent 3 hrs following him as he walked around. TEDIUM, extreme TEDIUM.
and, it had been a long "day" for me. i do all of the night parenting, and i do all of the day parenting, and my husband does some parenting (30-45 minutes of play time plus pottying) at night when he gets home from work (he also parents when i'm working in the evenings/weekends--usually for no more than 2 hrs).
well, wednesday night, DH came home from work, then went to his men's meeting (1x per month). so, i had hawk from tuesday night at bed time through wednesday entirely, and then through the night into thursday. i had him thursday entirely (as in, hawk woke up and i bathed, dressed, and fed him, drove DH to work, then took hawk to the park, then lunch, then nap, then park again, then pick up DH, and dinner, and then this event.
so, then i went home and hawk was in bed, and we went to sleep to (it was about 10:30), and then this morning DH drives himself to work, and hawk didn't get up before he left, so i've been going without a break of any kind since tuesday!
i'm exhausted. yes. i have done my yoga and meditation in the am (with hawk there), and i've been keeping up with the household chores, and doing our paperwork for NZ. and, i also teach my classes. i seriously need some 'me' time.
so, i'm disappointed that i missed out on the bit (though i did get to eat), and i realized that i should have stayed home with hawk and let dh go to the event (because he was more interested in it than i am/was), and then just be able to rest more at home that evening.
upshot is that i was able to effectively communicate to DH that i need time for myself and he has to be willing to give some things up to do that--just as i gave up going to this event to watch hawk while he walked around and aroudn and around the library, while DH got to be at this event and meditate, etc.
so, i think i'm going to go to meditation and yoga on sunday morning (9:30-12). also, DH is not going to go and see lawrence of arabia (his fav movie playing at a local theater for their sunday classic), because i asked him not to, as i want to finish the NZ paperwork this weekend and get it off by friday of next week and i need his help to do it.
that's where i am. LOL