(((dr.worm!))) i sometimes struggle a LOT and certainly did when i wasn't feeling well, due to sleep deprivation or mild depression...i've been able to overcome a lot with creating routines and being gentle with myself. not easy. also with taking a natural vit d cod liver oil regularly and eating lots of good fat like butter and coconut oil! it sounds like you are handling a lot already. when i have support of various kinds i can do so much more. also keep in mind that lots of us here may do wonderful things you speak of - but not constantly!! or in just in bursts. things definitely do fall apart around here. my older child is almost nine, and it really is just the beginning of sewing, knitting, cooking for us...and she is very interested. i'm home with her, we homeschool, so this is *what we do* as opposed to fitting it in after all the other things, that is MUCH easier. good health and good support are critical, to be doing many extra things. take it easy on yourself. early in this thread i posted my routines, keep reading and you'll find that and others. you may be amazed at what you can do if you just take flylady's advice of creating a very abbreviated routine for yourself, doing that for a few weeks, and s l o w l y adding things to it. i used to live in pure chaos - passports stacked between papers that were clearly garbage, huge piles of clean and dirty mixed up on the floor in the bedroom, piles of dishes in the sink and the counters, nothing in the fridge and had to order pizza, financial chaos, no wonder i couldn't get out of bed!! it is a fine line at first, but once you start to get rituals established, it gives you more energy.
try to use this thread to inspire rather than to criticize. it is full of ideas and i think we are all aspiring, that certainly doesn't mean success all of the time. for example right now i am spending a ton of time reading about all of this, but very, very little time actually doing. i finished knitting something yesterday, had a visit with friends and then family, and read a huge amount. i certainly didn't sit down and teach my children anything aside from a conversation we had about heating houses, caring for the earth, and other ways we could keep warm - so we all went and put on sweaters! that was lovely! took 5 minutes! but they played hard with lots of people. when i'm back in london i won't have all of that, no doubt i will be tired!
enjoy your mother's participation! i wish i still had my grandmother. it is contributing if you can give your mother the time to be with your daughter, and you can even suggest passing on any other skills she might have, or learning together.
take it easy on yourself. joyful inspiration will give you more energy than punitive demanding.
here's what gets me out of bed, when i cannot seem to. i am very visual, so i vividly picture the kitchen the way i'd like it cleaned up, then either put on some music, the timer, or phone a friend on my cordless phone, and get down to making that image reality. usually what i think will take 4 hours takes only 1/2 an hour. or less.
i hope something here is useful to you.
today is the day to go digging in the crawlspace for the canner, and see if i can bring it with me to england