Having trouble dealing with grief

[unimatrix0]

My lovely Cassie died six weeks ago. She was only six and got sick suddenly. I know that it's my fault that she died. We had to move in with my in-laws and they refused to have the cats upstairs. We had our own space in the basement, but it was difficult to spend enough time with the cats since there was no kitchen down there (and the kids just didn't want to be down there all the time). I'm sure that she ate something she shouldn't have. She chewed things when she was stressed. I hate that that was her last home. I hate that I didn't watch her closely enough.

We got her ashes yesterday and it was a difficult day (especially when I'm home all day with the kids all the time). She was the most gentle soul I've ever met and I miss her so much. I just don't know when life will ever feel right again.

[mamallama]

I'm so sorry.

[canadianchick]

So sorry for your loss.

[unimatrix0]

Thank you both.

[somegirl99]

So sorry, please don't blame yourself. ((hugs))

[heartmama]

I'm sorry. Don't blame yourself. I've had situations where a pet died and I wondered if I did or did not do something that might have prevented it.

Plenty of cats play in basements and are fine--you could not have known she would find something toxic.