Overwhelmed

[ema-adama]

I'm just going to dive in here.

My mum died almost 3 months ago. Very unexpectedly. I have hardly had time to mourn her. In the 2 months that I have been back home the husband of a friend of mine died of cancer, friends of ours lost their baby at 38 weeks and today my MIL was diagnosed with cancer. They don't know enough yet to give a prognosis and will be doing CT scan tomorrow.

But I just do not feel like I have the reserves to deal with all of this. I can't.

I have a little boy who needs me. I need me. I need some peace and quiet to mourn my mother and I really just want to the world to stop for a while - or all the hard things to stop anyway.

Each phone call that I get with bad news just sends me reeling. I want to support my friends and family through these very difficult times - but right now I just need to look after me. This makes me very sad for some reason. I feel overwhelmed by so much suffering around me. I hate thinking of what MIL is going through tonight as she waits for her CT tomorrow. I can't even begin to imagine.

And I haven't even started to touch what it means to me to have lost my mother.

[2goingon2]

I wish I knew what to say other than I am sorry. You have so much to deal with. Peace to you.

[ema-adama]

Originally Posted by 2goingon2

I wish I knew what to say other than I am sorry. You have so much to deal with. Peace to you.

Thank you

[ckberkey]

Couldn't read and not post. Crying with you.

[minsca]

I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I have no answers or really any help to give, but I do give you my thoughts.

[ema-adama]

Thank you for your replies.

My MIL has stage 3 colon cancer, so treatment starts ASAP.