I have to vent a little and declare my stubbornness to the world. So I'm having serious milk supply issues...probably from the breast reduction 9 years ago but I also found out recently that my mom had low supply issues with both my sister and me (thanks for telling me now, mom, lol!). In addition, my nipples are flat as a pancake except after I pump and they immediately go flat again. I can nurse Nora with a shield, but it's a pain in the butt and I don't make enough milk to really keep her interested. We're using formula and I'm supplementing with breast milk. Yep, it's usually the other way around but I make maybe an ounce a day pumping (that's it, no kidding).
I'm using a hospital grade pump (Medela Symphony...boy it's a milking machine...owwww!), but can't afford the rental or the expensive herbal galactagogues or domperidone (and I'm not going on Reglan...no no no, not with the depression-related side effects). We're going every 2 hours for 20 minutes to try and increase production, but no go so far.
So...I bought a slightly-used Pump in Style since I'm only using the Symphony on half power anyway. It will save us money. I may not make as much as I would with galactagogues, but it's ok. Some is better than none at all.
I went to a LLL meeting last week with a friend. Oh boy, was it hard to watch all those mommies just pop out a booby and feed their babies. You have no idea what it feels like to be an outsider and more than a little inferior when you can't do what your body is supposed to do. On top of it, Nora got hungry and I had to pull out a bottle to feed her. I didn't care, I squared my shoulders and did it (was a little scared because I've heard rumors that LLL can be anti-bottle/anti-formula no matter what your reasons...what am I supposed to do? Let her starve?!). I actually got a lot of support from the women once they knew my reasons for using formula. One lady glared at me the whole time and I glared back with a "Bring it on, lady!" look on my face.
Nora is beautiful and thriving and I feel good anytime I can give her 2 ounces of my milk. Sure, it takes me three days to pump enough for her, but I am NOT giving up and I'm committed to do this until Thanksgiving at least. All of you mamas with low supply issues, I feel for you and I pray you find success at whatever level you set your goals for.
Our babies our totally worth it.
I'm using a hospital grade pump (Medela Symphony...boy it's a milking machine...owwww!), but can't afford the rental or the expensive herbal galactagogues or domperidone (and I'm not going on Reglan...no no no, not with the depression-related side effects). We're going every 2 hours for 20 minutes to try and increase production, but no go so far.
So...I bought a slightly-used Pump in Style since I'm only using the Symphony on half power anyway. It will save us money. I may not make as much as I would with galactagogues, but it's ok. Some is better than none at all.I went to a LLL meeting last week with a friend. Oh boy, was it hard to watch all those mommies just pop out a booby and feed their babies. You have no idea what it feels like to be an outsider and more than a little inferior when you can't do what your body is supposed to do. On top of it, Nora got hungry and I had to pull out a bottle to feed her. I didn't care, I squared my shoulders and did it (was a little scared because I've heard rumors that LLL can be anti-bottle/anti-formula no matter what your reasons...what am I supposed to do? Let her starve?!). I actually got a lot of support from the women once they knew my reasons for using formula. One lady glared at me the whole time and I glared back with a "Bring it on, lady!" look on my face.
Nora is beautiful and thriving and I feel good anytime I can give her 2 ounces of my milk. Sure, it takes me three days to pump enough for her, but I am NOT giving up and I'm committed to do this until Thanksgiving at least. All of you mamas with low supply issues, I feel for you and I pray you find success at whatever level you set your goals for.
Our babies our totally worth it.







I feel tons better about doing this. Pumping is a huge pain in the butt but I've never once thought about quitting (so far, lol!).