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post #141 of 284
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Originally Posted by heidirk View Post
OK, so Last week I had my appointment. She said I needed immediate chemical assistance. So I've been on Zoloft since Thursday. I wish I could say I'm all but really I'm just Whatever.

No, it HAS taken the edge off. I feel clearer-headed, and I can think when I sit down to read my class books or study or write. I am not as irritable with the kids. In a week I will be premenstrual, and we'll see if it helps with that- it'll be the 'acid test'.

What hasn't changed is the fact that I still cannot deal with my world. I really would like to try an ADD med after she's satisfied w/the zoloft.

That's about it...I'll be seeing her twice a month.
Zoloft is used to alleviate symptoms of premenstrual dysphoric disorder, so it may actually help you with pms.

If the side effects from Zoloft aren't unbearable, give your mind plenty of time to get used to this new experience. This is just my take on my own experience: I felt the expected benefit from the antidepressant within a few days, leveling off at about a week and a half. Then began the re-learning process. Because I'd been depressed for so long my view of myself and the world had gotten pretty jaundiced. When some of the depression was lifted (and it's never completely gone away, and I don't expect it ever will) I started to see the world a little differently and unconsciously I started getting new thought habits. These seem to me to be the secondary, indirect effects of the medication, and this is where the real progress, real healing is.
post #142 of 284
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Originally Posted by journeymom View Post
Zoloft is used to alleviate symptoms of premenstrual dysphoric disorder, so it may actually help you with pms.

If the side effects from Zoloft aren't unbearable, give your mind plenty of time to get used to this new experience. This is just my take on my own experience: I felt the expected benefit from the antidepressant within a few days, leveling off at about a week and a half. Then began the re-learning process. Because I'd been depressed for so long my view of myself and the world had gotten pretty jaundiced. When some of the depression was lifted (and it's never completely gone away, and I don't expect it ever will) I started to see the world a little differently and unconsciously I started getting new thought habits. These seem to me to be the secondary, indirect effects of the medication, and this is where the real progress, real healing is.
hhmmm.... lots to think about. The side effects are quite manageable so far. I have another appointment in January so I am sure she'll have lots to ask me about, then. I'm trying to be objective about how the medicine is working, but there aren't any fewer stressors in my life right now, and I still have ADD. oh well.


Hi mamabohl! Give us an update in the babe!
post #143 of 284


We survived our family Holidays with no significant breakdowns!


post #144 of 284
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Yay!
post #145 of 284
Hey all!

Heidi- glad to hear it. We did well here too. There was too much excitement for me to get down or po'd!

I have my first appt with a counselor tomorrow. I'm kind of excited but don't want to get my hopes up. Frankly, I'm not sure what is going on with me, depression, ADD, other stuff. I had a really BAD week two weeks ago and now I feel ok, happy even. But I know that it will come eventually. Also, I started writing in a journal more, here online where it is easier to get it in. Especially if I just have one or two thoughts that I want to write down. I suppose that doesn't help curb my computer addiction though!

Hope you all have a great new year.
post #146 of 284
cody'smomma- I'll be thinking of you tomorrow.



Me- I'm thinking PMDD for myself- on top of ADD of course! But I should be in (proverbial) hell right now, and I am not, so the Zoloft is working, plus my vitamins, which suddenly seem to be working again.

I cleaned the toybox today, junked a bunch of broken/ripped toys and books, and put a few in a box to 'yardsale'.
post #147 of 284
Heidi-that's great. Does the zoloft still allow you to feel happy? I remember taking it for about a week 10 years ago and it made me feel just kind of flat. Also, for Christmas, I told my sister I wanted her purging services. Meaning, she is going to come in for a whole day or so and help me go through stuff and get rid of/organize. And she is ruthless! Just what I need.

So at my appt yesterday, I told the gal all of the things that have been going on and she was actually quite awesome! She had this little book that she asked me questions out of and when it came to the ADD, she asked me a bunch of questions and then was like, ok, you have ADD. It was nice, but at the same time, I thought, isn't there more to it than this? As for the depression, she said I have a mood disorder-NOS. Meaning, I don't have full on depression. Which I knew all this already. But at least she was able to acknowledge it. I won't be able to meet with the prescribing nurse for another month, but I have another appt with her in two weeks. She was great, but the one thing that kind of bugged me was that when I would tell her certain things she would kind of get this look on her face of pity and say, "oh". Like she felt bad for me. Which wasn't really helping but at least it showed some compassion on her part. So I'm really excited for my next appt where I can really get some help. Plus she said I could bring DP sometime if I want which would be nice for him to understand what is going on with me.

So in a nutshell, I feel exactly the same today but I'm glad that I've at least gotten the ball rolling.
post #148 of 284
I get it!

Yes, I still can feel happy. In fact I feel happier, smile and laugh more, etc. I feel quite good to tell the truth. Better than I've felt in a long time. it does make me wonder though how long I've been feeling low.

I'm glad your Sis can come and help you out!
post #149 of 284
Yay, Heidi! I'm seriously considering meds. Maybe I should see a counselor fist. :doh

Somewhere, someone said on one of these threads, I think, that untreated ADD can cause depression, so. . .

Maybe that's been my problem my whole life.

Happy New Year's Everyone!
post #150 of 284
Oh, I wanted to add that when I went in to see the counselor I had printed off a quiz that I had taken online about ADD. It was really helpful to be able to remember what I wanted to tell her.

Maggirayne-I've read that too. Which could explain my off and on depressive episodes over the years. None of which was TRUE depression.
post #151 of 284
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Yay, Heidi! I'm seriously considering meds. Maybe I should see a counselor fist. :doh

Somewhere, someone said on one of these threads, I think, that untreated ADD can cause depression, so. . .

Maybe that's been my problem my whole life.

Happy New Year's Everyone!
See a counsellor, Maggirayne, you'll benefit I'm sure. It was like, 'For once someone believes me!'

...that someone would have been me...


Happy New Year's!

cody'smamma, one of the nicest things right now, is I feel a bit more tuned in, YK? Like, I noticed yesterday that DH would be home in X minutes, and it was just enough time to have a pot of coffee brewing when he got home!

I have always wanted to be able to do things like that, but it's never been doable before.
post #152 of 284
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Originally Posted by Maggirayne View Post
Somewhere, someone said on one of these threads, I think, that untreated ADD can cause depression, so. . .
This would be a really useful thing to figure out, huh. I tried to bring this up at my last appointment... I'm sure in my not straight forward, confusing, awkward ADD way-- so I didn't really get any insight- other than some agreement on how it might work. I guess I think he's not overly worried about my having depression, which is good, I suppose. I sensed he thinks the best way to deal with it is to treat the ADD with meds and learning some ways to work with ADD and any issue will probably work out.

The relation between ADD and depression makes a lot of sense. Or maybe not full blown depression but just feeling bad about myself at times. If I think about how feeling overwhelmed and unorganized makes me stressed and then tired out and then frustrated when things happen all over again. I see how I can then be hard on myself or feel guilty. There's a constant pressure to do things because they are never done. Then there is a tendency to go overboard (for me) or to try to do more than I can possibly do. And that means I'm constantly overextending and never getting time to unwind. Even when I should or could take 'me' time.... Then the worst for me is not making good use times that I could put to good use or just do something worthwhile for me. Like if I have some time, instead of doing something really fulfilling for me, I'll do something mindless- which is NOT fulfilling and makes me feel guilty for wasting the time. Sometimes it is not really a conscious decision, but sometimes I do feel like I punish myself in a way because I feel like I'd waste the time, or that I wasted time so shouldn't take any for myself now. Not that I have a whole heck of a lot of 'extra' time around to do much with, lol.

As for depression....
I remember in high school learning about depression a little and one of the things was that if you think you are depressed, then you probably are... Also if you feel sad often you could be (or maybe it was if you are not happy?).... but both statements never really made 'sense' to me and didn't really make me feel like I was depressed- just maybe that sometimes others were happier (but then as an only child it always seemed to make more sense that I just didn't have other people around as much).
The info doesn't seem to be much better nowadays, although there are probably better sites out there that I just have not happened to come across from (I was actually surprised when what I happened to find was pretty much the same).

Anyways, it would be helpful to know more about the link and even better what to do about it.

Happy New Years everyone!

Jessica
post #153 of 284
jess and maggirayne- check this out.

http://www.additudemag.com/adhd/article/748.html

HTH.
post #154 of 284
thanks, I'll check it out

btw, being home with my mom was really interesting over the holidays. My husband was like OMG she SOOO has ADD and 100X worse (said to me, not to my mom). I'm also hoping that I can talk to her about it a little more and see if she will be a little more receptive into exploring ways managing ADD might help her. At this point she just feels guilty that I have ADD and doesn't seem to want to talk about it much.
I also don't really remember things being quite as bad as they were this year, my poor mom.
Jessica
post #155 of 284
jess~I get what you're saying. I've been feeling that way too. I don't "fit" the criteria for depression, not depressed for days/weeks at a time, can function and all, but I definitely get depressive "episodes". I'm coming to the conclusion that it is from a lifetime of "not measuring up". For so long I have thought there was something inherently wrong with me that I couldn't get it together. So maybe it's not true depression, but...anyway, lost my train of thought I so can relate to what you're saying. And it just freaks me out that what if I can't recover from this? What if I've messed up so bad and things are so screwed up, that I can't pull myself out? Or damaged relationships beyond the point of repair? Ugh. All this thinking lately is making my head hurt.
post #156 of 284
ugg.... ITU about the thinking making your head hurt. I feel like I have so many things I'm dealing with and trying to figure out that it's like one of those giant intricate jigsaw puzzles my mother loves and I hate.
post #157 of 284
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ugg.... ITU about the thinking making your head hurt. I feel like I have so many things I'm dealing with and trying to figure out that it's like one of those giant intricate jigsaw puzzles my mother loves and I hate.
I know what you mean. Except I really like those puzzles, I just hyperfocus and do the whole thing in one sitting. Which is why I haven't done one since having kids...

So I just had a great day today. Don't know why. But I have been religiously taking my supplements that I had stopped taking for several weeks. Maybe that's why? I got back out my book, The Mood Cure, and reread parts of it. I really need to get back on the eating healthy wagon which I've been doing pretty well since New Years. Let's hope I can keep up this momentum! There are some monthly challenges I'm doing on this board to keep me more accountable. Hope I stick with them, even if just for the month.

I have my next appointment with the mental health person next Wednesday. The first appt was just an intake thing so we'll see what this ends up being all about...

Hope you all are doing well.
post #158 of 284
I'm going in tomorrow at 4:00 pm. wish me luck.
post #159 of 284
I haven't read through the whole thread yet.

Does anyone have problems with memory? The more scattered I am, the worse my memory becomes. It's been getting so bad the past few months.
post #160 of 284
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Does anyone have problems with memory? The more scattered I am, the worse my memory becomes. It's been getting so bad the past few months.
So bad. It's become a joke with all my friends. I vividly remember things happening totally differently from how they actually happened.
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