probably an induction for me too.

[octobermoon]

my BP was high today at my appointment. they took it like four times and it was about the same each time, 140/90 ish. urine was good. they gave me another NST and thankfully baby was fine. i have to do another 24 hour urine, they took more blood, and then i go in Thursday for another NST. the MW said they will more than likely induce me that day. i asked her if i had ANY other options and she said "none that were safe" so i went ahead and had my membranes stripped as well. right now i am upset about the way things are going. i am trying to find the positives and yes i will meet my baby soon but truthfully i'm afraid my baby is not going to be healthy and whole, i mean there are no guarantees. i have not had an U/S so i just don't know. it's hard to keep my head up at the moment. if i knew my baby was going to be perfect i would be fine with that knowledge and could rest in that, but i don't know that for sure. so meeting my baby is not comforting to me right now. i'm scared. i have an acupuncture appointment tomorrow for an induction there, i hope with that and my membranes being stripped i will go into labor before Thursday at 8 am. please send me all the prayers and good thoughts you can find.

[Auroara Bobcat]

blessing to you and your baby. I am sure you both are and will do just fine.

[newmomroxi]

I'm hoping that everything goes well for you.

[joeys_mom]

Oh October, wishing you the best, everything will be fine.

[kismetbaby]

Octobermoon, sending all my positive thoughts and hugs your way! I am sure your baby is and is going to be happy and healthy and perfect. I know you have had many disappointments about your labor and birth, but in the end all will be well.

Hope your induction methods start to work! Keep your chin up. . .

[2boyzmama]

If you are truly worried about the health of your baby, you can ask for an amnio to check for lung development. Right now you appear to only have PIH, not pre-e, so there's no major rush yet. If knowing that baby's lungs are mature will help you be more calm, consider the amnio. It's very low-risk at this point, worst it can do is kick you into labor!

[cristeen]

And truthfully, none of us ever know that our babes are perfectly healthy. Even with a 20 week u/s and an amnio both, there are plenty of things that could be missed or just plain wouldn't show up. So don't feel bad about that fear, it's perfectly natural.

[RavenStar]

I'll definitely keep you in my thoughts and prayers this week. I hope the acupuncture induction gets things going.
There's a breath I used during pregnancy and labor. It's called the "Waa Breath". You imagine your fear, take a deep breath in through your nose and on the out breath say "Waaa!" out loud. Imagine that fear leaving you, riding out on the wave of your breath.
You can do it as many times as you need....imagining individual fears or collective ones. It's very cleansing and releasing.

[octobermoon]

thank you all for the words, kindness and encouragement.

[deymm]

((HUGS))) and labor vibes to you too!

Hang in there and *try* not to stress cuz you know what that will do to your BP!

We will BOTH be holding our little ones soon!!!

[~Caitlyn~]

Oh no!

I'm sending you lots of good labor vibes... maybe your LO will come before then... and I totally agree with Cristeen... none of us ever know for sure how healthy our baby will be... no matter how many tests we've had. I worry about that too... and I'm sure we're not alone.

I'll keep you and your family in my prayers...

[peanutbuttercup]

I promise promise promise, no matter how or when your baby is born, he or she will be perfect in your eyes. I say this from experience, and I truly believe it.

My thoughts are with you and your little one. Everything will turn out just as its meant to be.

[tofutti]

oh, october, i am so sorry.

i know how you have been so excited and supportive of everyone so far....i hate to see you so down.

try to keep your chin up, i know its so hard. your baby WILL BE amazing. try not to connect your fears of not having the birth you wanted to the baby's health - it sounds like you are all mixed up, and i wish i could give you a hug!! but i know how you feel! i have been there! we all have!! every fear gets layered on the next and your mind just goes a bit.....coocoo....

this is SUCH an emotional and intense time. birth is gonna be a massive release and once you are "on the other side" the world is gonna be a different and much better place, promise

all of this worry will be like water under the bridge.........and you will be posting about breastfeeding marathons and good stuff like that

no matter what the birth, you will be on a crazy high when you hold your baby, i promise that too. my closest mom friends - between us we have had birth across the scale from natural to induced to .... you name it, and guess what? we ALL felt the crazy, mad in love, better than christmas-birthday-honeymoon put together high. and our kids are all amazing of course

it's gonna be good!

[ElliesMomma]

Originally Posted by tofutti

oh, october, i am so sorry.

i know how you have been so excited and supportive of everyone so far....i hate to see you so down.

try to keep your chin up, i know its so hard. your baby WILL BE amazing. try not to connect your fears of not having the birth you wanted to the baby's health - it sounds like you are all mixed up, and i wish i could give you a hug!! but i know how you feel! i have been there! we all have!! every fear gets layered on the next and your mind just goes a bit.....coocoo....

this is SUCH an emotional and intense time. birth is gonna be a massive release and once you are "on the other side" the world is gonna be a different and much better place, promise

all of this worry will be like water under the bridge.........and you will be posting about breastfeeding marathons and good stuff like that

no matter what the birth, you will be on a crazy high when you hold your baby, i promise that too. my closest mom friends - between us we have had birth across the scale from natural to induced to .... you name it, and guess what? we ALL felt the crazy, mad in love, better than christmas-birthday-honeymoon put together high. and our kids are all amazing of course

it's gonna be good!

yes to all of this.

so you've got two days of waiting ahead of you. "the waiting is the hardest part." (labor is hard too, of course.) then you have the rest of your life ahead of you. with your baby. i promise you everything will turn out good in the end. try to enjoy the journey ahead.

[Guinevere]

Thinking of you, octobermoon, and wishing you an easy labor with no further complications and that you can find peace with such an unpredictable (and unwanted) turn of events. The pg rollercoaster is almost over, though, and that is a relief. And the next phase -- life with baby -- is soooo much better.

Guin

[Zumbi]

:::: Sending you lots of good labor vibes and thoughts.

[StrongFeather]

Originally Posted by tofutti

oh, october, i am so sorry.

this is SUCH an emotional and intense time. birth is gonna be a massive release and once you are "on the other side" the world is gonna be a different and much better place, promise

from a worried first timer to another, what she said is SO TRUE. I wish you a magical birth!

[MyZoeJane]

I'm sorry.

Try to embrace what cards you're dealt and remind yourself that all you can do is the best with what you have. Beyond that, your birth experience is only a small fraction of what you will remember about becoming a mother for the first time.

Your baby has a far superior chance of being "perfect" than anything else. He or she WILL be perfect to you regardless. Keep your chin up! I promise that what is coming for you will be exciting and once it's all said and done you will look back at this time with great relief.

Today is our due date! The end IS in sight! :

[Dmitrizmom]

sending ELVs your way.

Happy birthing day on our EDD.

[KikaKika]

A big hug to you - it will all turn out for the best!
Keep positive - there is still some time before your Thursday appt.