No seriously, this is going to be a vent. I am sure it is a touch of PPD and exhaustion, and having a tough crazy two year old but there is more to this.
I NEED to get an HOUR to myself. Maybe two. I love my baby, but I am tired tired tired of having her attached to me every moment. I feel stuck. my two yr old has no schedule, none. She is in between napping/not napping/late napping. Up all hours, demanding and this new taking off her clothes, sticking her hand in her diaper and smearing playing with poop.
I am tired and sore and cannot sleep comfortably with a baby constantly in bed with me. I just WANT A LIFE. I want to get what little sleep I am getting comfortably, not deal with screaming tantrums over a sippy cup, not have to yell at a toddler (not yelling is not a possibility these days). I never can sit. NEVER and I have a constant headache and ache entirely head to toe.
I would leave Anna with a sitter for a few hours, but bottles are just not happening and honestly she is just so attached to me, if I am not around, it is a mess.
I seriously cannot take anymore. I have not, for the last 2 months, spent more than 10 minutes away from my baby and it is starting to wear me down. I cannot keep up with all the nursing and the diapers. My mom has been on this FRIGGIN Mission to train Abrielle and now she is OBSESSED with poop and panties and the toilet but she is JUST NOT READY. No matter how many times I tell my mother she is not ready, my mother insists I am not trying hard enough. I have NO time to train her right now, NONE NONE NONE. My mother thinks I should devote a week or 2 to staying at home and training her, all while nursing a newborn exclusively and being the only REAL parent of these kids. Abrielle has no holidng power... NONE, she cannot hold urine.
UGHHHHHHHHHHHH....
Where are these men that convinced me to go through with these pregnancies? WHERE ARE THEY??? Enjoying themselves, out at bars, at the gym, even work I envy. I WANT to work. Seriously I want to go to work and stick these kids in daycare. I want to just be alone.
I cannot have a normal sex life, I cannot go anywhere, I cannot shower alone or email anyone.
Counseling is not really an option, I am bi-polar and medication is not an option as it makes me tired to the point I am incoherent. So I have to manage and most days I am ok. I think I am just at the end of my rope and just needed to vent. I just want to run away.
I NEED to get an HOUR to myself. Maybe two. I love my baby, but I am tired tired tired of having her attached to me every moment. I feel stuck. my two yr old has no schedule, none. She is in between napping/not napping/late napping. Up all hours, demanding and this new taking off her clothes, sticking her hand in her diaper and smearing playing with poop.
I am tired and sore and cannot sleep comfortably with a baby constantly in bed with me. I just WANT A LIFE. I want to get what little sleep I am getting comfortably, not deal with screaming tantrums over a sippy cup, not have to yell at a toddler (not yelling is not a possibility these days). I never can sit. NEVER and I have a constant headache and ache entirely head to toe.
I would leave Anna with a sitter for a few hours, but bottles are just not happening and honestly she is just so attached to me, if I am not around, it is a mess.
I seriously cannot take anymore. I have not, for the last 2 months, spent more than 10 minutes away from my baby and it is starting to wear me down. I cannot keep up with all the nursing and the diapers. My mom has been on this FRIGGIN Mission to train Abrielle and now she is OBSESSED with poop and panties and the toilet but she is JUST NOT READY. No matter how many times I tell my mother she is not ready, my mother insists I am not trying hard enough. I have NO time to train her right now, NONE NONE NONE. My mother thinks I should devote a week or 2 to staying at home and training her, all while nursing a newborn exclusively and being the only REAL parent of these kids. Abrielle has no holidng power... NONE, she cannot hold urine.
UGHHHHHHHHHHHH....
Where are these men that convinced me to go through with these pregnancies? WHERE ARE THEY??? Enjoying themselves, out at bars, at the gym, even work I envy. I WANT to work. Seriously I want to go to work and stick these kids in daycare. I want to just be alone.
I cannot have a normal sex life, I cannot go anywhere, I cannot shower alone or email anyone.
Counseling is not really an option, I am bi-polar and medication is not an option as it makes me tired to the point I am incoherent. So I have to manage and most days I am ok. I think I am just at the end of my rope and just needed to vent. I just want to run away.
This works well for nap time and night time or when you know she is going to poop soon and you can't follow her around every second. Just a thought HTH.
