Its only noon and its already been a really long day and my head is getting ready to explode. I brought in a friend to help me get the house totally decluttered and clean and we worked our butts off and got the house nice. dd has already ripped it apart! I can't even walk through the bed room, she's got it so trashed in less then a day. I need to get the repair guy in here to fix the electrical since were having major power surges (last one blew past the surge protector and fried the computers power supply and at least 1 hard drive, haven't had time to check the others, I know the C drive was damaged too since its crashing constantly now. The same surge also blew out a lamp and I don't know what else but the breaker was flipped when we came home and found everything off (all that was running was the computer and small A/C)) anyway she's made the room we totally cleared a mess, dragged out the clothes I had packed away for the season, has repeatedly tried destroying the coffee table I've spent 18mo looking for to refinish and finally get what I want. I keep putting it back and she keeps getting it back out and stacking stuff on it which will gouge the wood (its an old style large coffee table with claw feet and openings on top where I am going to put in inlaid stone tile, it will be beautiful when I'm done). I set up a touch screen monitor for younger dd to use to play preschool games on that I got at a thrift for $1 thats worth over $200 and she keeps taking it off the monitor and dropping it and she's going to shatter it. (I've banned her from the computer all together and she still won't leave it alone and keeps claiming its an "accident" which is total BS. She messed up the chain on my bike when she wouldn't leave it alone. She's flat out refused to do any school work the past 3 school days and is getting behind and even taking away everything isn't helping. Its just been one thing after another the past couple of days and just now she's going to make my head explode, younger dd got my school ipod out of my backpack and it appears she ticked off older dd so older dd took it away and THREW MY IPOD and shattered the display! When I find dd's ipod I will be taking it to replace the one she broke but man, this just really really upsets me that I can't have anything because she friggin breaks/ruins it! I'm going to ask the psych to adjust her meds because we've just had to many manic days this week and I am getting to the end of my rope with both of them. Its one thing for the 3 yr old to act like a 3 yr old but when you have a 9 yr old acting the same way and they just feed off each other? 
I seriously see a dose of clonidine for this afternoon...
To add to the fun I have a ton of homework I need to get done today which totally is not going to happen because of all the crap she's pulling and I can't focus on my work and oh yes, I need to do her infusion and I can't get her to park her butt to even get the numbing cream on her. She's got aches and pains and just wants to complain about it but won't sit still long enough to even give her the meds that will make all the pains go away (I know she's trying to get her Ig levels to drop enough that we have to go to the hospital to restart the cycles because she gets to be queen for a day while on IV, to hell with the fact that I can't afford the $50 in gas or the stress of finding a sitter for the 3 yr old to drag her down there! Its not going to happen period, many Dr's are now starting on straight SCIG and skipping the loading IV dose, we skipped the loading dose last time and did it after missing a month of weekly infusions and it was fine.). She's complaining about stomach aches but won't eat enough to keep her stomach full because she's being picky because all she wants to eat is cupcake muffins but at about $7 a doz and she will go though them in less then 2 days (she sneaks them even out of the freezer) I am not going to keep making them! I got the mixes as an occasional treat not to be a sole food source! She snuck all the 3 yr olds lunch meat (special low fat for mito issues) that was to last the next 2 weeks while I was in school so now I don't know what I'm going to do for her lunches and I can't even figure out WHEN she took it! I'm about to flat out install pad locks on the fridge and freezer! She can't seem to grasp the fact that we can't pig out on food, its portioned out to last a week or two and not just a day or two, she doesn't need to eat like a pig just because it tastes good. We shouldn't have to go hungry because she took it upon herself to sneak in and eat a critical part of the meal and now I don't have everything to cook it! argh...
Sorry, its just been a really bad 24 hours and I NEED a break and I won't get one until Tuesday
I seriously see a dose of clonidine for this afternoon...
To add to the fun I have a ton of homework I need to get done today which totally is not going to happen because of all the crap she's pulling and I can't focus on my work and oh yes, I need to do her infusion and I can't get her to park her butt to even get the numbing cream on her. She's got aches and pains and just wants to complain about it but won't sit still long enough to even give her the meds that will make all the pains go away (I know she's trying to get her Ig levels to drop enough that we have to go to the hospital to restart the cycles because she gets to be queen for a day while on IV, to hell with the fact that I can't afford the $50 in gas or the stress of finding a sitter for the 3 yr old to drag her down there! Its not going to happen period, many Dr's are now starting on straight SCIG and skipping the loading IV dose, we skipped the loading dose last time and did it after missing a month of weekly infusions and it was fine.). She's complaining about stomach aches but won't eat enough to keep her stomach full because she's being picky because all she wants to eat is cupcake muffins but at about $7 a doz and she will go though them in less then 2 days (she sneaks them even out of the freezer) I am not going to keep making them! I got the mixes as an occasional treat not to be a sole food source! She snuck all the 3 yr olds lunch meat (special low fat for mito issues) that was to last the next 2 weeks while I was in school so now I don't know what I'm going to do for her lunches and I can't even figure out WHEN she took it! I'm about to flat out install pad locks on the fridge and freezer! She can't seem to grasp the fact that we can't pig out on food, its portioned out to last a week or two and not just a day or two, she doesn't need to eat like a pig just because it tastes good. We shouldn't have to go hungry because she took it upon herself to sneak in and eat a critical part of the meal and now I don't have everything to cook it! argh...
Sorry, its just been a really bad 24 hours and I NEED a break and I won't get one until Tuesday
