I want a fourth---SOMEDAY. Preferably a girl, but that is because *I* always wanted a sister.
that said I do
my boys big time.
DD was only 14 months when I found out about DS2 and I remember sitting in my CNM's office crying with her nursing at my first PNV. (then I cried at my second PNV with her because I had to tell her I wanted her to be my backup hospital plan, but I was going to homebirth this time...I LOVED LOVED LOVED my CNM and had a FABULOUS birth with DD, but I just cried at the thought of sitting at a hospital for 2 days for NO reason and DH having to choose between me and new baby or releiving my parents of caring for the kids at home...)
Now, with DS2 I am THRILLED and he is the HAPPIEST baby EVER.
and DD loves him. They are 5 days short of 22 months apart.
I will *NOT* if I can possibly avoid it have that same spacing again. I feel like I slacked some on discipline with DD because I was hugely pregnant and tired, busy with the new baby, etc etc and am paying for it now. (things she got away with in regard to fighting with older bro for example...)
But I DO DO DO want a 4th...SOMEDAY...I was actually thinking it might be nice for DD to be the same age DS1 is now, 4-5, DS2 would be 3...at the soonest.
I do NOT take all my kids alone places unless we are talking about the playground or other child-centered location. I would if they were older I think.
I DO love taking the boys (ages almost 5 and 10 months) they are super-easy to handle together. I thoroughly enjoyed a mom's evening with video with the two of them back when DS2 was a little baby--he nursed through the movie and slept and smiled while we chatted, and DS1 disappeared with the other kids most of the evening. *Perfect*
It's not that I don't ADORE my dd it's that she is 2.5 and she is INTENSE....she runs out the door at will throughout the day here. She still has potty accidents--oddly enough NOT when she is out, but at home. And she WON'T take herself to the bathroom--she will SCREAM until I escort her. And she and her older brother fight CONTINUALLY....with OCCASIONAL moments where I have a GLIMMER of hope that SOMEDAY they just MIGHT be able to communicate....
but she also comes up behind me and says "I kiss your butt Mom!" while doing it. She's full of hugs and love. She is sweet.
Wouldn't give any of them back for anything and someday, even though now it seems a little crazy....I would like to expand the love....